Did I choose the right path for myself?

[icyprincessxu]

Doubt is all over my mind now.

I was the one who decided to study here, in Singapore. Now, I'm the one who is not sure whether I chose the right path or not. 
My parents offered me to go. They didn't force me to go. It was all up to me, whether I want to go or not.
But at the end, I decided to go. Just because I felt like I have to try. Try to challenge myself.

Now I'm here, in the country where I don't know anyone. 
I've been here for one and a half month. Almost two months. 
There was a time where I felt like give up and go back to Indonesia. 
Even now. 
But then, I remember what my parents told me.

"You are not allowed to go back to Indonesia once you go. The only options are to stay in Singapore or you go even further"

That line is actually what keep me going to stay here and try my best to survive. 
I do not want to disappoint my parents. I want them to be proud of me. 
Therefore, I've been trying to hold my feeling. 
Stop thinking that living here is hard. 
Stop thinking that I can't survive. 
Stop thinking that I'll fail.

Because I know, I will not fail. I can survive.