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I think i'm going through a period of self loathing right now. The question is when did it start? I have realized in this past week that I am not the person I want to be. I've become selfish and lazy and unkind. I no longer put effort into relationships with people, and justify it by saying that I'm just too busy. I am going into debt because I'm too lazy to get a job. I can't sustain myself, or run my own life. I'm constantly in a downward spiral that won't help me get anywhere. I'm gaining weight that I'm too lazy to work off, and I spend money on unnecessary items. When did I become a person that I would look at and hate? How do I turn around to become a person that I thought I was, or the person I want to be?