insomnia for me....do i need meds?
It's almost two and I cannot fall asleep. I wasn't even tired yesterday at 3 in the morning. I waited until 4 to fall asleep. It's cold in here and outside but more so out there. I've been listening to Miss Spektor lately. Her songs are so great and get me thinking about stuff. Like her songs fidelity, better, samson, on the radio, and field below remind me so much of who I am and who I want to be.
Today I had a realization. I'm afraid to reach out and take a chance on anyone because of them. I'm scared. Afraid to fall onto the same trail, lead a similar adult life. I'm scared to completely admit to myself and others out loud who truly am. Not that I'm living a lie or misrepresenting myself but I've forever left out apart of me.
I have great hair, my eyes are striking.....I'm trying this affirmation thing my friend advised me to do. Sometimes I forget to love myself. I do love me. I just need to remember to be nice and not mean to myself. Being mean to myself is a bad habit I'm trying to break.
I fall for the wrong people, always.
My foot is asleep.
I need to finish studying but I think I'll shower instead.
He's coming on Friday. Time to lift one load from my shoulders. There lies another but hopefully not if the one that is uploaded goes well. She's here already and I can't say anything. I must stay quiet. I must watch and listen in pain. Endure it twice the amount. It hurts more this way.
Anyone up for mending a heart?
I didn't think so...oh well I guess I can get a new one.
Today I had a realization. I'm afraid to reach out and take a chance on anyone because of them. I'm scared. Afraid to fall onto the same trail, lead a similar adult life. I'm scared to completely admit to myself and others out loud who truly am. Not that I'm living a lie or misrepresenting myself but I've forever left out apart of me.
I have great hair, my eyes are striking.....I'm trying this affirmation thing my friend advised me to do. Sometimes I forget to love myself. I do love me. I just need to remember to be nice and not mean to myself. Being mean to myself is a bad habit I'm trying to break.
I fall for the wrong people, always.
My foot is asleep.
I need to finish studying but I think I'll shower instead.
He's coming on Friday. Time to lift one load from my shoulders. There lies another but hopefully not if the one that is uploaded goes well. She's here already and I can't say anything. I must stay quiet. I must watch and listen in pain. Endure it twice the amount. It hurts more this way.
Anyone up for mending a heart?
I didn't think so...oh well I guess I can get a new one.