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I have been feeling terrible lately.
Not in a sick way, for once.
I feel like I am stuck in a rut.
But, I know that I'm only stuck here until I get out. Which means after finishing school and all that, I can move on to a better time in my life.
But I don't know if thats enough anymore.
I also feel like without drinking obsessively, I now want to do other things obsessively. Like rearrange things and cook and do crafts and think about all of my possibilities. And smoke pot and hang out with people. Its like everything is off-balance. I sometimes wonder if being sober is really worth it. Or maybe I need to be completely sober, like quit smoking. Cause ultimately, it will lead me back to where I was before. I am always stuck in my head. I don't have much to talk about anymore.
I think I need to go to a therapist. The hard part is finding one. BLeh. Or maybe just a friend with some sort of brains that actually wants to listen to my problems.
Ugh. I hate this.
xoxo.
Not in a sick way, for once.
I feel like I am stuck in a rut.
But, I know that I'm only stuck here until I get out. Which means after finishing school and all that, I can move on to a better time in my life.
But I don't know if thats enough anymore.
I also feel like without drinking obsessively, I now want to do other things obsessively. Like rearrange things and cook and do crafts and think about all of my possibilities. And smoke pot and hang out with people. Its like everything is off-balance. I sometimes wonder if being sober is really worth it. Or maybe I need to be completely sober, like quit smoking. Cause ultimately, it will lead me back to where I was before. I am always stuck in my head. I don't have much to talk about anymore.
I think I need to go to a therapist. The hard part is finding one. BLeh. Or maybe just a friend with some sort of brains that actually wants to listen to my problems.
Ugh. I hate this.
xoxo.