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I feel as if my bones are becoming denser in some places, and more fragile in others.
My body also feels empty alot of the time. And, I've been very picky about things that I eat.
Maybe changing my drinking and living habits coincides with my eating habits as well.
I feel tired often too. Like I have a decade of sleep to catch up on. I hate it.
Sober living is nice, but today I am going to crowd my thoughts with smoke in honor of Chrissy's birthday tomorrow. Sometimes, after burning, I feel as though all the things I have been thinking become solid. And maybe I'll sleep later tomorrow.
This weekend is not something I am looking forward to at all. Tomorrow I will be working all night. I am the last cut before closers, so I might as well stay til close. Hopefully that means I'll make some good money. I just hate the unorganized feel of being there when no one else really is. I get anxious a bit. Then, Saturday, I am opening and working a double until 6th cut. Money making day. I am glad for it though. Even though after work I will be completely exhausted, the money is worth it. I have some bills that need paying.
I am unsure of what to do about certain friends. I do not like to push, but I have a tendency of trying to make everything go my way. Its not very attractive. I think I'm going to sit back on this one and see how it plays out without my involvement.
My mom promised me she would get my camera fixed for me for Christmas. I wish I could get a rush on these kinds of gifts, because it would be nice to have some photographic memories of this time of year. Oh well.
xoxo!
My body also feels empty alot of the time. And, I've been very picky about things that I eat.
Maybe changing my drinking and living habits coincides with my eating habits as well.
I feel tired often too. Like I have a decade of sleep to catch up on. I hate it.
Sober living is nice, but today I am going to crowd my thoughts with smoke in honor of Chrissy's birthday tomorrow. Sometimes, after burning, I feel as though all the things I have been thinking become solid. And maybe I'll sleep later tomorrow.
This weekend is not something I am looking forward to at all. Tomorrow I will be working all night. I am the last cut before closers, so I might as well stay til close. Hopefully that means I'll make some good money. I just hate the unorganized feel of being there when no one else really is. I get anxious a bit. Then, Saturday, I am opening and working a double until 6th cut. Money making day. I am glad for it though. Even though after work I will be completely exhausted, the money is worth it. I have some bills that need paying.
I am unsure of what to do about certain friends. I do not like to push, but I have a tendency of trying to make everything go my way. Its not very attractive. I think I'm going to sit back on this one and see how it plays out without my involvement.
My mom promised me she would get my camera fixed for me for Christmas. I wish I could get a rush on these kinds of gifts, because it would be nice to have some photographic memories of this time of year. Oh well.
xoxo!