a trek of 72

[icuruscautious]

i cant believe its been almost 2 months?
it doesnt feel like its been that long.
but then again it feels like the mallory rondayvue was decades ago
where does time go

i need to invest more time into music again
i think i can get more out of it this time
but then again i think it might be a lost cause
because its all in who you invite into the club

i love chase and matt for letting me stay with them
im trying not to be lousy and a pain
but for some reason i feel like i am
i just want to get this job at American Apparel
and then hook them up PHAT with $$$
and then pay peter back for his drum machine and other stuff i have borrowed/not returned to him
and casey back from when i was 16
and buy nana cloths
and have money for cigarettes
and food
and save money for a car
and save money to move away
thats what i want to do
PLEASE DEAR GOD HELP ME GET THIS JOB!

i am going to try and stay up for 72 hours straight
i dont know if i should start now or spend a whole day resting
wait for chad to get here
and then have him and i do it together
well see what happens
i just want another reality check

i miss nana
i miss peter
i miss leah
i miss chad
i miss botar
i miss smoking