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i want her to hate me for everything i didn't do for her in our relationship but she won't & this alone makes me cry knowing that maybe i really do push people away
but todays my birthday so i'm not going to dwell on the fact that she's already put in too much effort to make my day special.
i find it fitting that i partied into my birthday with people that know nothing about me anymore and actually a few people i know would prefer they never did know me.
but it was raining and rain on my birthday doesn't suck.
i really really wish i didn't have to sleep alone on my bday though.
off to hanson to eat some amazing food, take photos and maybe get a present.
but todays my birthday so i'm not going to dwell on the fact that she's already put in too much effort to make my day special.
i find it fitting that i partied into my birthday with people that know nothing about me anymore and actually a few people i know would prefer they never did know me.
but it was raining and rain on my birthday doesn't suck.
i really really wish i didn't have to sleep alone on my bday though.
off to hanson to eat some amazing food, take photos and maybe get a present.