Goodbye, Geri.....
The worst thing my mom could ever tell me was said yesterday. She wanted me to stop by my house after work instead of just going straight to Tracey's house, I knew something was wrong...
I got home and my mom looked at me, I knew someone/something died, I hate that fucking look... I asked if anything was wrong with Mommom, she said it wasn't human... Then it came out...
"It looks like Geri got hit by a car..." I screamed "NO!!! NOT GERI!!!" Not Geri, Not Geri.....but it was Geri... and I was a hysterical mess. Of course, the question everyone asks but they already know the answer to "IS SHE OK?!?!" My mom said Josh went out to get the mail and she was just laying there...near the street in front of the mailbox. They found her at around 11am, so they had to bury her then, since I wouldn't be home till after 6pm. I didn't get to say goodbye, not even one last nose kiss....
Damn mother fucking drivers that go 50 down my street killed my angel. I loved that cat more than anything, I have always included her in EVERY roll of film I have ever taken, she was so beautiful :-). Look at my user ID, profile and Interests... I showed Lindsay, Marissa, Jessica, and Kelly those cork boards with at least 5 Geri pics on each. I have 'MARCI LOVES GERI 1-18-02' painted with school bus yellow paint on my white walls, that was a fun day. I have the times Geri's littermates were born and the time she was born, yes, I know it's obsessive.
I don't know what to do, she was my cat only, she was so spoiled. Kind of like "The apple of my eye", my pride and joy... I feel like a little kid again, I just want my fucking cat back, I know it won't happen, and that hurts worse. Whoever did this, I hope they feel horrible about this forever. That cat was everything to me and they took her away. I just keep thinking "how long was she laying there?" "was she in pain?" "did she know if I was there to do anything about it, I'd do anything in my power to make her better?" "did she feel rejected since Freckle lives here too now?" "did she know I'd miss her forever and without her my heart has a hole in it?" It's so stupid to think these things and make myself sadder but I've had that cat since she first meowed (I have that time, too).
This morning at 5am I woke up crying, I don't know why, I just woke up and I knew Geri wouldn't be waiting at the door to be let inside. So I went outside, walked to the mailbox, where Josh found her, wondered why the hell it had to be Geri, and of course I was crying. I walked around the yard, waiting for Geri to pop out of the bush and start batting a pine needle around....... Then the black cat came. The one that came to the church parking lot with me that one time. He was in the bush! I was outside for about an hour and he let me hold him and he was purring and rubbing up against my leg, maybe he was Geri's boyfriend.....aw....... He made me feel a little better but then the neighbor opened the door, I told him to visit me again soon, and he left.
Then I found out Fred died yesterday too, my mom buried them together because she said there would have been no Fred without Geri (she's the one that attacked him, and I saved him....well, I tried....)...
I will miss her so much, she was my "perfect angel" and that's what I've told everyone. I was a Geri freak but now my heart hurts and I wish I was there to save her.........
How do you heal a broken heart?
I love you forever, my perfect angel.......
Gerianne Elizabeth Taylor
March 4, 2000 - September 6, 2002
I got home and my mom looked at me, I knew someone/something died, I hate that fucking look... I asked if anything was wrong with Mommom, she said it wasn't human... Then it came out...
"It looks like Geri got hit by a car..." I screamed "NO!!! NOT GERI!!!" Not Geri, Not Geri.....but it was Geri... and I was a hysterical mess. Of course, the question everyone asks but they already know the answer to "IS SHE OK?!?!" My mom said Josh went out to get the mail and she was just laying there...near the street in front of the mailbox. They found her at around 11am, so they had to bury her then, since I wouldn't be home till after 6pm. I didn't get to say goodbye, not even one last nose kiss....
Damn mother fucking drivers that go 50 down my street killed my angel. I loved that cat more than anything, I have always included her in EVERY roll of film I have ever taken, she was so beautiful :-). Look at my user ID, profile and Interests... I showed Lindsay, Marissa, Jessica, and Kelly those cork boards with at least 5 Geri pics on each. I have 'MARCI LOVES GERI 1-18-02' painted with school bus yellow paint on my white walls, that was a fun day. I have the times Geri's littermates were born and the time she was born, yes, I know it's obsessive.
I don't know what to do, she was my cat only, she was so spoiled. Kind of like "The apple of my eye", my pride and joy... I feel like a little kid again, I just want my fucking cat back, I know it won't happen, and that hurts worse. Whoever did this, I hope they feel horrible about this forever. That cat was everything to me and they took her away. I just keep thinking "how long was she laying there?" "was she in pain?" "did she know if I was there to do anything about it, I'd do anything in my power to make her better?" "did she feel rejected since Freckle lives here too now?" "did she know I'd miss her forever and without her my heart has a hole in it?" It's so stupid to think these things and make myself sadder but I've had that cat since she first meowed (I have that time, too).
This morning at 5am I woke up crying, I don't know why, I just woke up and I knew Geri wouldn't be waiting at the door to be let inside. So I went outside, walked to the mailbox, where Josh found her, wondered why the hell it had to be Geri, and of course I was crying. I walked around the yard, waiting for Geri to pop out of the bush and start batting a pine needle around....... Then the black cat came. The one that came to the church parking lot with me that one time. He was in the bush! I was outside for about an hour and he let me hold him and he was purring and rubbing up against my leg, maybe he was Geri's boyfriend.....aw....... He made me feel a little better but then the neighbor opened the door, I told him to visit me again soon, and he left.
Then I found out Fred died yesterday too, my mom buried them together because she said there would have been no Fred without Geri (she's the one that attacked him, and I saved him....well, I tried....)...
I will miss her so much, she was my "perfect angel" and that's what I've told everyone. I was a Geri freak but now my heart hurts and I wish I was there to save her.........
How do you heal a broken heart?
I love you forever, my perfect angel.......
Gerianne Elizabeth Taylor
March 4, 2000 - September 6, 2002