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i thought you were growing smaller
you were almost so tiny that my eyes couldnt focus on you
so you really werent worth trying to see
more like... you weren't even there
yeah, you were like that at one point in time
i waved goodbye willingly and happily
but then you came back
bigger and stronger than before
now it's like you're the only one that i can see
the only way i know how to make you go away again
is to ask you
you know exactly the answer i need to hear
but you are reluctant to say it
so you continue to keep it hidden from me
should i ignore you
should i continue along my daily routine
only... making you a part of my thoughts?
but i accept those thoughts to be normal
its the only way i know how
but to make you go away
is fucking beyond me
should i continue to let you bruise me
bruise me so your marks are visible to me at all times
and as i watch them heal
i become stronger
as i dont need you to hurt me anymore
so i ask you
why are you doing this to me
when will you go away
i'll wait
although i wish i didnt have to
i believe that is the only choice you have given me
contradiction
lies
power
love
freedom
peace of mind
anxiety
relaxation
stress
happiness
comfort
hatred
jealousy
when oh when will i find a balance?
the only remedy is sleep my dear
and sleep is what i shall do
you were almost so tiny that my eyes couldnt focus on you
so you really werent worth trying to see
more like... you weren't even there
yeah, you were like that at one point in time
i waved goodbye willingly and happily
but then you came back
bigger and stronger than before
now it's like you're the only one that i can see
the only way i know how to make you go away again
is to ask you
you know exactly the answer i need to hear
but you are reluctant to say it
so you continue to keep it hidden from me
should i ignore you
should i continue along my daily routine
only... making you a part of my thoughts?
but i accept those thoughts to be normal
its the only way i know how
but to make you go away
is fucking beyond me
should i continue to let you bruise me
bruise me so your marks are visible to me at all times
and as i watch them heal
i become stronger
as i dont need you to hurt me anymore
so i ask you
why are you doing this to me
when will you go away
i'll wait
although i wish i didnt have to
i believe that is the only choice you have given me
contradiction
lies
power
love
freedom
peace of mind
anxiety
relaxation
stress
happiness
comfort
hatred
jealousy
when oh when will i find a balance?
the only remedy is sleep my dear
and sleep is what i shall do