Deadliest Catch
Against my own expectations, I can handle seeing Phil and the medical stuff. I think it's because it was clear that he knew his time was limited even before the stroke, one way or another. It's not at all good, but...it's okay.
I am finding it almost impossible to watch everyone around him (and not just the boys--it's heartbreaking to watch Freddy's face). It's so personal and so painful and it feels intrusive, even though I know they gave permission.
This is all so strange and so unprecedented. I'm still not entirely sure it's something I should be watching. But I also want to see it all through.
And the way that I feel is nothing whatsoever on what any of those people--real people, not just figures on a TV screen--have experienced in all this. That never leaves my mind.
(cut because I know there's at least one person for whom this is too close for comfort and I want to give the option of choosing whether to read about it)
Also...Jake Anderson on the Northwestern feels kind of like the little brother I never had. I have so much affection and so much concern for that kid.
And he looks rather startlingly like Vincent Kartheiser, I just realized.