Goddammit, I miss her
I miss Ryan so much. She brought up the point that we're not spending a lot of time together, but really we can only spend so much. But she is a poor girl, and I need to accomadate to that as best as possible. That means going out to see her when I have 2 days off of work. I didn't do that, and yet I spent the past hour on the phone with her telling her how I'll do what it takes to make this work. Why the fuck didn't I? Because I'm a douchebag who retracted into Magic too much and wouldn't spend the same amount of money and see my girlfriend. This changes, here and now. Saturday when I get off of work, I'm going to go see her. I need to be reminded of what I'm fighting for. I know she's there, but I need physical touch to be reminded of that. I miss her soft skin and she mentioned that it's great sex is what we're fighting for. That may be part of it, but it's certainly not all of it. I want her, here and now. I want to be with her.