Arctic chill
I am certainly not the only one to be complaining of the deep freeze just days after 60 degree weather, but I find this beyond brutal and just cause for hibernation. Unfortunately, hibernation does not appear to be an option with bills to pay and a job to keep. Besides, without interweb access of my very own I would be lost. After all I do get bored with sleeping after a time. My mind chases it's tail, well, my mind chases tail in general, but half heartedly. Recently I came to the conclusion that recovery from this surgery may well take me a year. I spend a day or two active and then can do nothing but curl up in a ball at home and become quite cranky while at work for a couple of days until I have relaxed out of exhaustion back into boredom. The yo-yo effect is quite fatiuging. C'est la vie. I MUST do somewhat for my birthday which is something I should have thought about earlier considering I've got merely days to plan, but I just don't know if I'm going to have the energy for anything more than sitting in front of my television watching bab 5.
I hate the fact that my inability to hold steady reserves of physical, mental, social, and emotional energy is causing cases of alienation across the board. It's not that I do not notice that I'm drifting away from my friends, or that I don't care about voicemail messages I have received from those who are certain that I care nothing for them and never have. The truth is I handle weakness very poorly and do not cope well allowing others to see such things. I miss who I was quite terribly, but I also know that the time that my health has forced me to spend in the quiet has lead to me resolving many of the issues within my psyche. Have patience, have faith, have understanding, have love if you've got it to spare. DVD's will be returned, formal apologies will be issued, congratulations will be profferred to the newly wedded, time will be allocated where possible. If any wish to join in hatchday festivities contact me either through the comments section which if I am lucky I should be able to access via my pheletone or call the cellular pheletone directly- Leave message or fail utterly. Back to my shackles. My fedex card shall run out shortly and the work expects their willing slave quite soon. And frankly, my body craves nicotine.
I hate the fact that my inability to hold steady reserves of physical, mental, social, and emotional energy is causing cases of alienation across the board. It's not that I do not notice that I'm drifting away from my friends, or that I don't care about voicemail messages I have received from those who are certain that I care nothing for them and never have. The truth is I handle weakness very poorly and do not cope well allowing others to see such things. I miss who I was quite terribly, but I also know that the time that my health has forced me to spend in the quiet has lead to me resolving many of the issues within my psyche. Have patience, have faith, have understanding, have love if you've got it to spare. DVD's will be returned, formal apologies will be issued, congratulations will be profferred to the newly wedded, time will be allocated where possible. If any wish to join in hatchday festivities contact me either through the comments section which if I am lucky I should be able to access via my pheletone or call the cellular pheletone directly- Leave message or fail utterly. Back to my shackles. My fedex card shall run out shortly and the work expects their willing slave quite soon. And frankly, my body craves nicotine.