Getting my life together. Again.
So I took a picture of this 5, 6? days ago and my life has drastially changed. Totally for the better though.
amusingly enough the pile on the floor was twice as large. I didn't capture it all though. And just in case you are wondering that was from the last four months of Holly and I living at this apartment. This doesn't in any way count the other places that I have lived at. In particular Holly's mom's. Anyways the point of this is not to say how fucked up it was that I drank all that and chained smoked it was more to tell you about how I feel better than I have in months... months.
Now that I have quit drinking and smoking. Even if only for five days. I have all this energy that I don't know where to place, I feel as if for the first time in years I actually have the capability to feel emotions like a normal human being. For the longest time I felt that if I could show people my real personality (ie when I'm drinking) they could see who I am, but it recently dawned on me that I didn't know who I was, and it really got to me. I love having fun I love laughing I love being sociable but I've killed all three traits off succesfully for who knows how long. So anyways really the point is, I'm doing good, I'm in a happy place.
amusingly enough the pile on the floor was twice as large. I didn't capture it all though. And just in case you are wondering that was from the last four months of Holly and I living at this apartment. This doesn't in any way count the other places that I have lived at. In particular Holly's mom's. Anyways the point of this is not to say how fucked up it was that I drank all that and chained smoked it was more to tell you about how I feel better than I have in months... months.
Now that I have quit drinking and smoking. Even if only for five days. I have all this energy that I don't know where to place, I feel as if for the first time in years I actually have the capability to feel emotions like a normal human being. For the longest time I felt that if I could show people my real personality (ie when I'm drinking) they could see who I am, but it recently dawned on me that I didn't know who I was, and it really got to me. I love having fun I love laughing I love being sociable but I've killed all three traits off succesfully for who knows how long. So anyways really the point is, I'm doing good, I'm in a happy place.