I'll be the maid and clean up the mess
Well today kind of sucked. My bosses are all psychotic.. like literally, psychotic... first off they expected me to do a two and a half hour long delivery by myself in something like forty minutes... which is entirely impossible, So I got my friend Hayley to help me because they were bugging on me to get my shit together, but because I did this I got her in mad shit and myself. So I took the delivery and when I got back my manager started screaming... and when I say screaming I mean like SCREAMING and didn't stop until well after I left apperently which was harsh and I have a headache as a result of this. Also one of the five people I can at the momment stand working with, quit. And finally the one thing that really really got to me was my friend Natalie is spreading around that I am gay. I wouldn't really have a problem with this except I had previously decided not to tell anyone at my work about my lesbian characteristics for the sole fact that I work with like forty iranian middle aged conservative women... and I don't want their beliefs to get in the way of our relationship particularly when it is a working relationship. I mean I don't have a problem with being gay but obviously they do so whatever... thats really not the point though... the point is I never said to her I was gay, I never really made any comments regarding my sexuality for this EXACT purpose... if anyone ever mentioned anything about boyfriends or the like I would just change the subject discreatly... I was hoping maybe they would come to the conclusion that I was asexual . But NO she is telling them straight out that I am gay... which she should have talked to me first or even asked if i was... I hate when this fucking happens... now I feel totally betrayed by someone I had previously trusted and people are going to view me differently... I am the same fucking person people, why can't anyone understand that... I don't want special treatment... I don't want people to think I am gay because my sister is... it's not a phase, I won't grow out of it, like fuck I'm not gonna try and rape you... This happens all the fucking time, I've lost friends because of something that really doesn't make a difference one way or another. DO any of you have any idea how hard it is to get rid of rumours when you're so shy it's hard to talk about anything, I do. Man how many friends do I have to lose for my orientation. I can never truly be close to my Dad and Step mom because I'm hiding a huge part of my life away from them. People have issues with changing or talking about their life (or certain parts of it) as a result... so whatever fuck it I don't care.