white water; every time we're quiet.

[icolette]

I love the plaza and I'm really happy to be working there. I bet back in the dayyyyy before everything was all paved up to fuck the plaza was a really nice little valley... imagine Sydney River/ the whole area with no human fuckery to be seen. All pure nature erywur. It'd be beautiful. Tonight at like, ten thirty I drove down to the plaza and Randell, Jeff, Robbie and Brad were all throwing a foot ball around under the lights in the parking lot. I find when ever something happens in the plaza at night it ingrains itself into my memory very clearly and i can see the whole thing happening any time i want in perfect detail. I remember Katelyn had the shaggon wagon down there one night, under the lights. I find I have a birds eye view of most of that area in my memory. One of Cantly village too, but its an old memory and i see it through really young eyes. Its weird. I've been looking up number meanings and shit a lot lately because like, every time i looked at the clock for a while it was either 1:11, 2:22, 3:33, 12:22, 11:11 or 12:12. 5's keep comming up too, but randomly and not on the clock. which is cool because one website says that 5's call for shaking shit up, adventure, things coming out of the blue and shit. but like, every website says different shit. all of the 1 or 11 definitions have more or less been the same though. Blyss told me that 1:11 or three consecutive ones is like, a code that your subconscious reads that leads you to manifest almost instantaneously. he said those who see consecutive ones should be aware of their thoughts because of that. Around the end of the middle of may one morning it was really really sunny. I went to either one full class or told a sub i had an appointment, i can't remember, anyways Me and Allyse were chillin with Colin and Liam at the end of O'Neil road. There's a farm there and they have a big sign. the address is 222. Its high up and it overlooks the water and a lot of land. We saw a donkey trying to mount another donkey. 4:44 showed up a bunch right after that. I think that good things are happening. I'm gunna look up the donkey totem. I don't know how one determines their animal totem, or if a totem is something that changes, or if you can have more than one totem at a time. I looked up a few that seemed significant. they were cool. i looked up dolphins becuase i used to love dolphins... like, all my shit had dolphins on it, and i know i did really like them becuase i remember wanting to be a marine biologist, but i cant remember actually liking them. I had a dream once that my room was back to that really disgusting yellow color it used to be (or maybe it still was in waking dehy) but anyways, my bed was in the lil inlet thingy and in the dream i woke up and the bed became a diving board and both floors of my house disappeared and my house was a giant pool with all the water in the basement. There was a dolphin at the bottom who was from the 90's to the max. he had like, well he was cartoonish and he had on like, those old sunglasses that were black and neon pink and he had like, a yellow and green surf board and neon pink and green swim trunks on. even though he still had a tail and shit. I can't really see it because its like, wicked far down. anyways on the diving board with me there's this cartoon looking killer whale. The lifeguard blows the whistle and I'm standing up on my bed, but now its really a diving board and i don't want to jump but the whale is making me and then i wake up. When we were little my parents took me and Doug to PEI and we saw the jaw of this huge giant whale in a museum and they showed the contents of his stomach and there were like three bathing suits... i thought the whale ate the people in the bathing suite and I'm pretty sure I started to get scared of whales/ the ocean right then. People probably lets their bathing suits on the beach though, and the bathing suits got swept away and then the whale ate them by accident. I just had an old old old memory of like, being at the beach my family used to always go to and watching a white and like, mauve and royal blue horse floaty float really really really far away. Craig and Sean cried over it and this man, im pretty sure it was their uncle Kenny, who was wearing those neon pink shorts and a white wife beater and had a mullet and a beard swimming out to get it and everyones screaming at him to come back in. and i drove there that day with my uncle Bryant's ex girl friend Heather. she had a white car and her friends were in it and they let me sit in the front seat. they put on the air conditioning but i kept opening the windows. they told me it would break the car if you had the windows open and the air conditioning on. I kept saying i was hot, but i wasn't, i just hated air conditioning and didnt realize. even now i hate air conditioning. i hate fake air, and i know thats not what it is, but its what it feels like. i watched Malcolm in the middle with my brother tonight. Malcolm in the middle is funny as fuck. I miss the good ol Sunday nights. oh, i also graduated. A+ me. I got a 50 in Soc and a 52 in math and a 63 in Global. Which is pretty fucking good considering I missed 26, 40, and 63 classes, respectively. I just went to click on my mood and all the mood words like, jumped into my neckular region. I also got a job at KFC. its pretty good. I have to book off a shit load of days for dinner theatre/ evolve though. I'm also playing a show at bunkers on the 17th. PUMPT. I'm gunna see about playing some more bar shows. I have this fantasy where my dad wins the lottery and he builds himself a nice big beautiful home somewhere nice and then gives this house to me and i let all my friends live with me. its a sweet motherfucking fantasy i must say. i always want to come back to this house. I always want to have people over at this house. it works well. Someone called the cops the other day because they saw a case of beer underneath my dads truck. The beer belonged to one of my brothers friends whose 21 and he only put it there because one of the beer got so hot in the trunk oh his car that it broke... that doesn't actually make sense to me, but i guess it might be possible and i wasn't home when it happened. So. i can't wait to eat breakfast in the morning. i forgot to buy peppers today. sucktown. i will still havea delicious breakfast. and tomatos. never mind. i've actually been writing this for like, i dont know. a long time. i think i should sleep now. but before i do i just want to say that i watch an episode of the simpsons on my computer every day while im drying my hair and usually if i'll put one on if i want to lye in my bed for a bit before going to sleep. so there was this one episode that i'd never seen before and it actually took me like 5 days to get through the whole thing without my computer shutting down. this really bitchy 14 year old (looking) girl wearing an old RHS sweater was smoking with her boyfriend outside the sobyes today. The girl was like, staring me down and so was the boy kind of and i was making eye contact with both of them as best as i could and then the dude said hi and the girl said hi and then i said how are yas and the boy said good, you and then i said good thanks and by this time i was at the sobeys door and probably looked retarded to someone. I took Allyses sweater from work and wore it to sobeys becuase its always so cold in there. when i dropped it off to her this cocky mother fucker was standing by the door so i said excuse me as i walked by and he said "excuse you" back like a douche fuck so i said thankyou like an equal or greater douche fuck and then this other guy who was with him, who no one likes and like, does shitty, stupid things all the time came up to me and was like, "are you lookin to buy xtc" (i couldn't figure out how to spell that) and i was like, no, and he's like, know anyone whose lookin for some? and i was like no. and he's like, ya dont? and im like no, and he's like, put the word out for me then and i was like fuck that, no and he goes, 'no? Not very good' or something. and now im scared because that guy broke into my car with a crow bar he had in his car at a party one night because i locked my keys in there. tonight was johns last night at subway. he was giving away shit left right and center. and so ends that beautifully delicious chapter. John called Ashley's house last night and asked if he could come and she said no. it was kinda sad, but probably for the best. Ashely's was fun last night. Im pretty sure i waited on her parents a lot at sobeys. i actually think i might have waited on ashley then too. kewl. its really weird going to parties where there are people who like, you either make wicked awkward eye contact with at school or dont make any with at all. its especially weird when you played soccer with one of those girls, she was a bitch, then she was randomly nice, who was there and being cuddly with a little boy who you told off one night and almost made cry becuase he was stealing your liquor, but appologized sincerely and then wasn't too weird and even though you never expected them to be going out its cool because the bitchy girl becomes more approachable and like seems to be more comfortable and nerdy, while the nerdy lil boy seems to be older more persnickety and they both like your music and try to tell you in the way that they have become. and its new so its weird for eerywhan, but not even bad becuase the future is bright.
night!

k. sleep.