I just spent another sixteen dollars buying more books online. I mean in some ways I'm paying one penny for each book but in other ways I am shelling out four dollars per book because of stupid shipping and handling and for some reason ordering a bunch of books from the same seller doesn't mean all the books can be shipped as one big package and I bought them all anyway.
I don't even have the time to be reading all this fiction because I have a lot of other things I should be reading for school and writing for school and gaarrrgh I've fallen into a completely different rut of story-addiction. It doesn't help that I've suddenly gotten into some sort of comic-drawing mode and recently bugged Birth By Sleep off of tono even though I really shouldn't have.
I don't have any idea how I'm going to write the rough draft for this research project because when you come down to it I'm not prepared. I have a lot of cool things to ramble about and I don't have any secondary sources to back them up because I didn't go to the library and I really should have but I have this whole problem with starting things.
Then I've been admiring things like
halcyonjazz's sketches and concept designs for Disney characters and I'm getting that horrible stretching feeling again, where I want to do something I don't want to do. Helped not at all by the fact that Aunt Six and Uncle Kelly came to town at basically the same time and I've spent the past week or so listening to them and my parents talk about universities and colleges and majors and shit. And the stupid campus tour in the pouring rain, for a school I wasn't even considering.
I mean I'm not feeling anything so melodramatic as despair or depression like my usual whiny posts, but I'm still like. . . flump. You know? Mmmmph.
剛用了十六塊錢在網上買四本書。還才沒問爸媽呀。每一本只是一號,但要它送來我家讓它變成了四塊一本。
我才沒有這樣的時間來看故事書,因爲我還有滿多課本的東西要學的。現在還再回到畫漫畫的事和玩朋友的Birth By Sleep,不管我沒時間玩它!在想什麽呢?!
歷史辦的這個研究項目很快就要寫完草稿了。真麽辦?我有很多很有意思的東西來講但是沒有信息,因爲我沒去了圖書館。開始東西是,對我來講,很難的。
還有看完了
halcyonjazz的圖畫和Disney的松畫又讓我覺得很不舒服,想要做不想做的事。那這星期,六姑媽和Kelly叔叔兩個一起來了這裡談我們,所以我上個禮拜常都是在聼他們跟爸媽說大學的事情。笨笨的下雨的campus tour,在一個我想都沒想要去的大學。
我不是太誇張地難過,但還是一點。。。flump。明白我說的嗎?唔。