break ups... eugh!
ALi and I broke up, I came to the point where i was so tired of putting in all my effort and trying to make it work... I dont know where he was what he felt or was thinking, but I didnt feel there was much co-operation coming back. Hes 'younger' needs to do more growing up and I dont think hes ready for a serious relatinship, but when u have to break something with someone u love so much its very hard. The thing is of corse love on its own wont tie and relationship together, u need compromise, u need desire, u need give adn take. I knew when he hesitated bout coming to see me this weekend that was pretty much the end for us. I couldnt keep merely tagging along ...and it wasnt fair for either of us. I saw him the 10th dec, then the following weekend we both went away to see diff frinds, then it was christmas , then it was new years which we were gong to spend together but my grandfather died and plans altered. then the following weekend we were gonna see each other but ali refused it due to too much studying then went out with friends.. that hurt and was a huge rift, then the weeks since then he had studying and exams were getting closer ( we live 2 hrs away) so i understood. But after 7 weeks of not seeing one another I knew that if he truely loved m,e he would hav an undying urge to see me... and he didnt ...which to me spoke volumes... so its over... jsut like that its all gone... and it hurts so bad