underneath it all...
i'm very overwhelmed and a bit stressed, and my face gets all splotchy when too many people are reminding me about wedding tasks i've yet to take care of. there are days where i just want everyone to leave me alone so that i can hear my own thoughts and figure out what I need to be doing for me. i mean, don't get me wrong...it's all very exciting and mostly i'm loking forward to being HIS WIFE! and kauai and all....but the problem is, we have less than a month- and haven't written our vows yet, & there's maybe a smallish handful of people i STILL haven't gotten invitations out to, AND we have many generous family members and friends to write thank yous to (and and and. i can think of a million things to add.)
so i'm very happy that i've made an executive decision to not work on fridays anymore, so that i can actually have one day a week for nothing but wedding planning and pampering. tomorrow will be my first wedding gown fitting (kristin, if you want to come- you can). so i must find shoes to wear with it today so the length will be right. and for one of my bride's maids who could not afford to get her own dress (i actually had to tell her she couldn't be in the wedding without one...it was so embarassing/sad for me), i will be paying for half of it so that this is a non-issue.
and then, we are having a combined bachelor/bachelorette party in big bear. and i just want all my worries to disappear, have a nice drink or two and dance my ass off by a fireplace (while being careful not to get too close, of course).
i just want to let go.
so i'm very happy that i've made an executive decision to not work on fridays anymore, so that i can actually have one day a week for nothing but wedding planning and pampering. tomorrow will be my first wedding gown fitting (kristin, if you want to come- you can). so i must find shoes to wear with it today so the length will be right. and for one of my bride's maids who could not afford to get her own dress (i actually had to tell her she couldn't be in the wedding without one...it was so embarassing/sad for me), i will be paying for half of it so that this is a non-issue.
and then, we are having a combined bachelor/bachelorette party in big bear. and i just want all my worries to disappear, have a nice drink or two and dance my ass off by a fireplace (while being careful not to get too close, of course).
i just want to let go.