me is going crraaaazzzyyyy......
Cant sleep..cant concentrate on work...cant do any of it anyways...what can i do for my maths exam on tues - FUK ALL!!! O wel..i wil fail..can always retake not the end of the world i guess!!
Had a gud and bad week! Dont know whats wrong with me..my amazin bf cheered me up today - THANK U!!! :) :) :) Still kinda sad tho..keep crying for stupid reasons! Why cant i get a hold of myself...wud make life alot simpler!!! But no..everythins crap..n im makin sur everyone knows it! Which is stupid coz then i get sympathy..which is the last thing i need...I DONT WANT U TO FEEL SORRY FOR ME!!!!!!
Not my fault it happened...i mean it isnt..but after everything he sed to me the other day..made me think i might be making a BIG mistake...but what if im not...if i do what he sed i shud do..im gona end up worse then i was before - DECISIONS!!!
Why cant he jst be like most other ppl...but no he has to be a selfish git..runs away without saying a word - get a life u stupid twat!!!!! But yet im still intrigued - wat the hell does that make me!! Pushover thats for sure!!!!
He still has such control of my emotions...how? why? ITS IMPOSSIBLE SURELY???!!!???!!! Obviously not tho hey! :( :( Bastard!!!!
Ppl who read this wont hav a clu what im on about..wel one might but ya know!!! I need to rant..let it al out n where better hey??? Sorry!