surgery
so march 24th i go and have surgery. when i went to the doctor i thought i just had one hernia, but it ends up that i have two. thats right i have TWO fucking hernias. my doctor said, "man im surprised you dont just pass out from exhaustion every day doing with work that you do". i had no idea that when you have something like a hernia, or two for that fact, that since your body is constantly trying to repair the hole in your abdomin that you lose more and more energy. my body has constantly, for like two years, been trying to fix this thing. so he said when i fully recover, 4-6 weeks, i will have more energy then i have had in two years. thats crazy to me, cause i dont feel as though i dont have energy. i mean yeah i go to bed early but thats cause im going to work full time and going to school. this might be a little crazy. so if you read this, please pray for a fast recovery. my surgery is going to take over two hours because they have to make two different incisions and fix BOTH of them. i had the choice to fix one at a time but then that is two times i have to go to the hospital, two times i have to recover and all that shit. so even though, in my doctors words, im going to feel like i got kicked in the balls for like four days, i want to get both done at the same time. im actually excited to get back to my normal self. im going to be pissed though about no running or lifting for a month or more. i dont know what im going to do. and work is going to suck cause i cant lift anything, and pretty much thats all i do at work. oh well though, its all for the good, cause i guess im going to have crazy energy again.