Down time.
I had an appointment today for consideration for medication. One step at a time, I'm going to get through this.
I felt like crap all day. I had a pounding, relentless headache. I felt dizzy and tired. I know I was dehydrated and I know I needed to eat something. But I just felt like I was incapable of doing anything. I couldn't even take a nap. I was restless and exhausted all at once, and nothing seemed to soothe me.
I feel isolated and alone but I want to be at the same time. I have had to tell so many doctors, therapists, social workers and even receptionists what I'm going through that I don't want to talk about it with my loved ones. I understand that people just want to be there for me, but I really don't know how much more I can go through. That being said, I'm feeling better now. And I am so lucky to have so many wonderful people around. Mike has been so great, and I can't thank my family and friends enough for how good they have all been to me.
Mike bought me new sneakers.
I haven't had a pair of sneakers in 4 years.
Three lazy kitty eyes in the window.
Mom is all moved into her new condo, slowly making it her own.
I'm really happy for her. And it no longer looks like THIS.
Jenna came over yesterday and we had craft time.
It was nice to feel productive and to spend time with her.
For more pictures click on any of the above images. I've been using Flickr instead of Photobucket and there are pros and cons to each of them. Not sure if I'll stick with Flickr or not, but whatever.
Mike is all excited about the Transformers movie, and so was I until I found out that Shia LeBeouf is in it. Don't get me wrong, he's grown up to be a handsome guy and he really is a pretty good actor. BUT. That kid freakin acts with his nose. I hate watching him act because he flares his gee-dee nostrils every two seconds and it is so irritating. So I am going to have to bow out on that one.
I finally bought a transmitter for my iPod and let me tell you, it's the best present I've bought myself in a long time. I love having it and having the ability to bring my music with me. Now that I'm years behind everyone else, I know why people love having the silly things. Too bad I still get sick of the music that I choose to have! I skip past shit constantly. One thing I've learned is that there are a few songs I'll listen to no matter how many times I've heard them.
I am going to try to figure out how I'm going to spend the next three hours. Sad to say, I have had no caffiene today and I know I'm not even close to feeling tired. I might get sleepy around 3 a.m. but I'll pop right out of bed around 8 or 9 tomorrow and not feel tired. I can't wait to feel human again.
xoxo
I felt like crap all day. I had a pounding, relentless headache. I felt dizzy and tired. I know I was dehydrated and I know I needed to eat something. But I just felt like I was incapable of doing anything. I couldn't even take a nap. I was restless and exhausted all at once, and nothing seemed to soothe me.
I feel isolated and alone but I want to be at the same time. I have had to tell so many doctors, therapists, social workers and even receptionists what I'm going through that I don't want to talk about it with my loved ones. I understand that people just want to be there for me, but I really don't know how much more I can go through. That being said, I'm feeling better now. And I am so lucky to have so many wonderful people around. Mike has been so great, and I can't thank my family and friends enough for how good they have all been to me.
Mike bought me new sneakers.
I haven't had a pair of sneakers in 4 years.
Three lazy kitty eyes in the window.
Mom is all moved into her new condo, slowly making it her own.
I'm really happy for her. And it no longer looks like THIS.
Jenna came over yesterday and we had craft time.
It was nice to feel productive and to spend time with her.
For more pictures click on any of the above images. I've been using Flickr instead of Photobucket and there are pros and cons to each of them. Not sure if I'll stick with Flickr or not, but whatever.
Mike is all excited about the Transformers movie, and so was I until I found out that Shia LeBeouf is in it. Don't get me wrong, he's grown up to be a handsome guy and he really is a pretty good actor. BUT. That kid freakin acts with his nose. I hate watching him act because he flares his gee-dee nostrils every two seconds and it is so irritating. So I am going to have to bow out on that one.
I finally bought a transmitter for my iPod and let me tell you, it's the best present I've bought myself in a long time. I love having it and having the ability to bring my music with me. Now that I'm years behind everyone else, I know why people love having the silly things. Too bad I still get sick of the music that I choose to have! I skip past shit constantly. One thing I've learned is that there are a few songs I'll listen to no matter how many times I've heard them.
I am going to try to figure out how I'm going to spend the next three hours. Sad to say, I have had no caffiene today and I know I'm not even close to feeling tired. I might get sleepy around 3 a.m. but I'll pop right out of bed around 8 or 9 tomorrow and not feel tired. I can't wait to feel human again.
xoxo