It's fair to say that I was hurt by the negative attitude that I had last week.
SW: 226
CW: 217
TL: 9
I weighed in 2 pounds heavier at my meeting on Thursday, although I was expecting a 3 or 4 pound gain. I was reckless... not tracking my food and not drinking enough water.
Honestly though, I wasn't worried about it. I found myself making poor decisions with portion sizes or with my actions overall (like on Tuesday night when Jenna and I stayed up until 1:30 in the morning having drinks and eating tortilla chips). But something that I have learned by going to my meetings is that one has to fit this plan into life. There are going to be times when I choose to go off plan or just stray from it, and it is my duty to get right back on the next time I eat or drink anything.
I did take the advice of a good friend, however. The day before my meeting last week I was in the grocery store, and I lifted a 10 pound bag of flour. I nearly cried in the baking aisle. I didn't take a moment to realize how much that was, and how much farther I have to go. But it is a good feeling.
I am back on plan and my meeting only made me feel better about this week. I have been trying to track differently and I'm being really strict about water intake. I've also started using the elliptical for a minimum of 20 minutes a day.
I wanted to share my latest quick and easy lunch. I have been buying the Smart Ones Three Cheese Macaroni and I microwave it about half way and then throw in a little over a cup of frozen organic broccoli florets. Then I put it back in the microwave until everything is heated completely. It is really tasty and a great way to sneak in some extra veggies.
Thanks again to everyone for the support. This is not easy (still) to talk about, but it's a time just like this that I want to know that I need to acknowledge my mistakes and learn from them, and move forward. I feel good, and I feel better about all of this than I did last week.