Points for use of the word 'colloidal'
So apparently I missed the mutual agreement to update Livejournal more often this year, but I guess I'm down with it if you dudes don't mind. I'm with Steph, though. I REALLY don't have much to write home about here.
I will say, though, that this semester is better than last semester so far. Of course, it's not that hard for anything to be better than last semester, but I'll take what I can get. Why, you ask? I have my theories. It could be the Spanish dance class. Or the fact that my roommate and I are starting to act like a married couple and call each other around 5 every day and eat home-cooked meals together. Or the unfortunate fact that I've discovered Buffy the Vampire Slayer online [It's like my own personal brand of heroin ;)]
I still get paralyzed sometimes, though, thinking about the choices I've made and how they've led me here. I'd say I'm a fairly rational person when it comes to the small stuff (some might say too rational), but all my big life decisions so far have been almost entirely devoid of rational thought, reason, understanding, commitment. I know my passion is going to become clear one of these days, but its really hard to plan for the future and feel good about it when you'll looking into a big, colloidal puddle of half-hearted fancies and concerns.
WashU is just not a very conducive place for self-discovery and exploration. I need to grow up and figure this out, but wow, doesn't time go fast? It just reminds me how much I cherish all of you and your support. I am GOING to be better about keeping in touch this semester. I didn't realize how much I need, love, and miss you guys until I went a semester without you.
I will say, though, that this semester is better than last semester so far. Of course, it's not that hard for anything to be better than last semester, but I'll take what I can get. Why, you ask? I have my theories. It could be the Spanish dance class. Or the fact that my roommate and I are starting to act like a married couple and call each other around 5 every day and eat home-cooked meals together. Or the unfortunate fact that I've discovered Buffy the Vampire Slayer online [It's like my own personal brand of heroin ;)]
I still get paralyzed sometimes, though, thinking about the choices I've made and how they've led me here. I'd say I'm a fairly rational person when it comes to the small stuff (some might say too rational), but all my big life decisions so far have been almost entirely devoid of rational thought, reason, understanding, commitment. I know my passion is going to become clear one of these days, but its really hard to plan for the future and feel good about it when you'll looking into a big, colloidal puddle of half-hearted fancies and concerns.
WashU is just not a very conducive place for self-discovery and exploration. I need to grow up and figure this out, but wow, doesn't time go fast? It just reminds me how much I cherish all of you and your support. I am GOING to be better about keeping in touch this semester. I didn't realize how much I need, love, and miss you guys until I went a semester without you.