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I wonder if I did anything wrong? Its one thing to be hated its another to be ignored. Not sure which one I'd prefer. But if I was hated at least I would know were I stood. Sorry all very cryptic I know. Lets just say someone I care about more than I really have a right too, is just plain snubbing me and I can't for the life of me figure out why? Maybe I'm just being paranoid, but even if I am, its not like I don't have good reason to be.
Heathers been nothing but kind to me, and thank god I have her to talk to. Though she has her own life now, and working two jobs gives me little to no time for talk, let alone anything else. Just enough time to think about my life, which is no good at all. God I need a job that'll get my mind off everything.
Maybe she figured out I like her, usually when that happens one of two things accure. One they fall out say they hate me and treat me like dirt so they make sure they send the message home that they want nothing to do with me. Or two they ignore me completely and hope the problem with go away. I have a feeling its number two, she's kind enough not to want to hurt me, and probably doesn't honestly know what to do right now in that regard. Or maybe she knows nothing, and I'm being an idiot. Which could also be the case.
I truly wish I didn't feel this way, life would be so much easier if I could just not care. It's sad I spend a better part of a day trying to get up enough nerve to call here. Only to get her messaging service.
Heathers been nothing but kind to me, and thank god I have her to talk to. Though she has her own life now, and working two jobs gives me little to no time for talk, let alone anything else. Just enough time to think about my life, which is no good at all. God I need a job that'll get my mind off everything.
Maybe she figured out I like her, usually when that happens one of two things accure. One they fall out say they hate me and treat me like dirt so they make sure they send the message home that they want nothing to do with me. Or two they ignore me completely and hope the problem with go away. I have a feeling its number two, she's kind enough not to want to hurt me, and probably doesn't honestly know what to do right now in that regard. Or maybe she knows nothing, and I'm being an idiot. Which could also be the case.
I truly wish I didn't feel this way, life would be so much easier if I could just not care. It's sad I spend a better part of a day trying to get up enough nerve to call here. Only to get her messaging service.