17.11.11
More or less, I think I probably understand how the members of JUMP feel when the company took down Ryutaro's picture in their web profile. It is hard losing a friend at work.
I only found out about the Ryutaro situation yesterday. When I read about it, I felt sad but it felt like a familiar situation. Last week also, Friday, I was told by my two closest friends at work that they would be transferred to a different line of business; effective Monday.
Just like that, we were not teammates anymore. That was the last time we spent lunch together at work - at 3:30 in the morning. I'm sad, obviously, but I'm not exactly sure what I feel. To a point, I feel numb, I want to not care. I also feel lost but then I'm also happy for them. They will have new experiences. For the next month, they'll only spend eight hours at work as opposed to my nine because they're in training. They can also start anew and forget the bit of a pinch they were in.
I don't know. This is probably for the better and we need to move on. I'm sure us fans are sad and hurt but the 10 of them are possibly suffering a hundred fold.
This is life though. It's not life if changes don't happen, if circumstances that we either like or dislike don't happen.
I was struck by what my team leader told me the other day as she checked up on me: "Remember your main goal when you were having your interview for this job. You wanted to get the job to work and earn money, not exactly make friends. Gaining friends is just a bonus, not part of your basic pay."
For actors, entertainers, idols, I highly think that would apply. They didn't exactly audition to make friends. They did it to be famous, to be a star, to make people aware of what they can do. Gaining friends is like getting the awards, a bonus.
I will still flail over Hey!Say!JUMP. I will still flail over Ryutaro. I still consider JUMP having 10 members. Although, I will accept the reality that from now, the company will recognize JUMP as a 9 member group.
That doesn't mean I love them less. On the contrary, I will strive to love them more.
I only found out about the Ryutaro situation yesterday. When I read about it, I felt sad but it felt like a familiar situation. Last week also, Friday, I was told by my two closest friends at work that they would be transferred to a different line of business; effective Monday.
Just like that, we were not teammates anymore. That was the last time we spent lunch together at work - at 3:30 in the morning. I'm sad, obviously, but I'm not exactly sure what I feel. To a point, I feel numb, I want to not care. I also feel lost but then I'm also happy for them. They will have new experiences. For the next month, they'll only spend eight hours at work as opposed to my nine because they're in training. They can also start anew and forget the bit of a pinch they were in.
I don't know. This is probably for the better and we need to move on. I'm sure us fans are sad and hurt but the 10 of them are possibly suffering a hundred fold.
This is life though. It's not life if changes don't happen, if circumstances that we either like or dislike don't happen.
I was struck by what my team leader told me the other day as she checked up on me: "Remember your main goal when you were having your interview for this job. You wanted to get the job to work and earn money, not exactly make friends. Gaining friends is just a bonus, not part of your basic pay."
For actors, entertainers, idols, I highly think that would apply. They didn't exactly audition to make friends. They did it to be famous, to be a star, to make people aware of what they can do. Gaining friends is like getting the awards, a bonus.
I will still flail over Hey!Say!JUMP. I will still flail over Ryutaro. I still consider JUMP having 10 members. Although, I will accept the reality that from now, the company will recognize JUMP as a 9 member group.
That doesn't mean I love them less. On the contrary, I will strive to love them more.