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i don't think its possible for me to be anymore upset right now with any of you. mint you knewn how hard break ahs been for me and had i known for certian when she was coming back things i did might not have happened. but thats no matter right now. i wrote an entry last ngiht at home and i'm going to post it i was thinking i wouldn't but you all have made me see i really need to.
I don’t want anyone to read this if they feel they have to. You won’t understand it if you just read it cause you think you have to. I want you to want to know how I feel when you read it. Not just cause you think you have to. If you don’t care I’m sorry to anyone and everyone I’ve hurt or done wrong to you (mina, mint ,kaily, rissa, nici, alex, jake, and anyone I haven’t mentioned if you think I’m whining to much just tell me its just…I don’t know what to do with myself anymore and no matter how much I want to turn to you all I can’t. I let jake see who I was and I hurt him and I can’t bear to do that to any of you. no matter what you say about how I can tell you anything I never will and I’m sorry for that more then anything else. After this is posted I might not be around. Mina…find me if you want and if not then I think I understand I couldn’t be around someone like me either if they couldn’t tell me anything no matter how much they care and how much they want to. I just don’t want to hurt anyone I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. I can’t say I’m sorry enough. I’M SORRY!
To be me
Take a minute and look back at me
You’ve done so much to help
But all its done has made me worse
I’m not who you think
I’m who you want
Chorus:
*All I ask is to be me
Not a little doll or a puppet
give me a helping hand
Let me see you won’t betray me
When I decide to be me*
Everyday you tell me be who I want
and in the end I’m just like you
I want you to like me
I want you to love me
And I won’t question what I do to make it true
No matter the cost I’m who is you
*CHORUS*
I want to be who is me
I want you all happy with me
I want to stay with you
I want to show the world
Who I am
What I am
Even if its not pretty to you
It might be to someone out there
*CHORUS*
I know its my fault
I should try to be who I need
But it always falls apart in the end
I lose my nerve the tears fall again
I end up in the darkness again
you can’t hold my hand
you can’t even touch me
I’m lost in my self
and who I’m trying to be
Cause I will never be me
*CHORUS*
I don’t want anyone to read this if they feel they have to. You won’t understand it if you just read it cause you think you have to. I want you to want to know how I feel when you read it. Not just cause you think you have to. If you don’t care I’m sorry to anyone and everyone I’ve hurt or done wrong to you (mina, mint ,kaily, rissa, nici, alex, jake, and anyone I haven’t mentioned if you think I’m whining to much just tell me its just…I don’t know what to do with myself anymore and no matter how much I want to turn to you all I can’t. I let jake see who I was and I hurt him and I can’t bear to do that to any of you. no matter what you say about how I can tell you anything I never will and I’m sorry for that more then anything else. After this is posted I might not be around. Mina…find me if you want and if not then I think I understand I couldn’t be around someone like me either if they couldn’t tell me anything no matter how much they care and how much they want to. I just don’t want to hurt anyone I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. I can’t say I’m sorry enough. I’M SORRY!
To be me
Take a minute and look back at me
You’ve done so much to help
But all its done has made me worse
I’m not who you think
I’m who you want
Chorus:
*All I ask is to be me
Not a little doll or a puppet
give me a helping hand
Let me see you won’t betray me
When I decide to be me*
Everyday you tell me be who I want
and in the end I’m just like you
I want you to like me
I want you to love me
And I won’t question what I do to make it true
No matter the cost I’m who is you
*CHORUS*
I want to be who is me
I want you all happy with me
I want to stay with you
I want to show the world
Who I am
What I am
Even if its not pretty to you
It might be to someone out there
*CHORUS*
I know its my fault
I should try to be who I need
But it always falls apart in the end
I lose my nerve the tears fall again
I end up in the darkness again
you can’t hold my hand
you can’t even touch me
I’m lost in my self
and who I’m trying to be
Cause I will never be me
*CHORUS*