The inner and subconscious evolution within yourself...
I'm glad that whatever happened in my life happened, because for once in the past week and a half, I'm not suicidally depressed. I have no idea why, but I'm going to take this generally decent feeling and run with it.
Friday I went to school for 1st through 4th, then I left for my appointment with Rhonna. <3 But first, I stopped at McDonalds and got me some lunch. Yum. Ate that in the parking lot of the building, then went inside and up. We had a lovely discussion about Abilene's sudden progression, but to be quite honest, most of the session was spent about me ranting about my totally crappy week. She asked me why Josh and I were still associating with one another if we drive one another crazy. Or rather, why I'm still associating with Josh if he drives me crazy. To be perfectly honest, it's because my disillusionment still sees me with him simply because we're still talking. Yeah, right. I know it's not the truth, but hey, whatever. The circumstances are just different with the 2 of us, so it leads to some confusion on my part.
After my appointment, I went back to school for Pre-Cal, then came home. I made some cupcakes for the Bake Sale at the Mexican Dinner, but I had to go get frosting and stuff for them, so Barbara and I planned on doing that. I was talking to Josh in the meantime, and he was sulking about, like, I have nothing to do, come get dinner with me, blah, so I invited him along for the ride. We picked up buttloads of sweets, then took Josh over to Bueno for some dinner, then came home. He ate whilst I frosted and sprinkled my cupcakes. As that was going on, Leah called him, saying that she needed to go to Wal-Mart to get stuff for the bake sale. I talked to her briefly and said that it was fine if she came over.
She did, and the 3 of us planned on going to Wal-Mart. I called shotgun and Leah insisted on driving, which is what she should have done. Josh drives her car sometimes, but I think that's whack, he's just like, "No, I'm driving." Wrong. So he through a little hissy and got into his car and was in front of us. He turned into Cisco, but Leah and I were like, 'kay then, peace! So we drove to Wal-Mart and he left me a hateful message on my voicemail. So I left him one. Then he left me one. Back and forth and back and forth all night. He left me one message that I will never forgive him for, it was so hateful. Argh! Alright, so that went on until we were leaving Wal-Mart. He and I talked until my phone died, but we established that he was coming back over. Leah and I made her cheesecake brownies, then the 3 of us just sat around all night. I think they left around 1:30 or 2, but it was cool.
I woke up around 11, lazed around the house until Cindy called me, asking if I wanted to move my appointment up. Heck yes! So I got my nails done (they're cool), then I lazed around the house until it was time for the Mexican Dinner. It was alright. We sang our 2 songs, then I ate, bought one of my cupcakes, talked to people, sang again, then left. We actually sounded alright, which was pretty awesome. CCA has been turbulent, to say the least, since Chou ditched us.
Leah and I went to the mall to check out Best Buy after that. I really like it there! I had forgotten how amazing their prices are for PS2 games. <3 Then we walked around the rest of the mall. Zach called whilst we were browsing, and we invited him to come along. He met us there, and we were walking through Best Buy again when we saw the Hudspeths. He asked us what our preference would be for tour groups, and we said the 2 of us, Andy, Aaron, and Holly. I like Holly, and that's fine if she's in our group, but man, if it's not Aaron, Andy, Leah, and I, I do believe I'll cry.
After that, we went to Leah's house and chilled there for a while until Josh showed up. Supposedly, he was just standing at the door, and we all thought we heard something, so Leah and Zach go to the door to check it out, see nothing but a figure, scream, and slam the door. It freaked me out because I was lying in Leah's room. So we talk to him on the phone some, and so he's coming back over.
We sat around and talked, then watched some TV. I was feeling pretty crappy at this point, so I just went home, talked to people some on the internet, and went to bed.
I woke up at 10 this morning, washed my dad's car, then vegged out in front of the TV until I came on here and did this entry. Huzzah.
On another note, I got a letter from Stephens College yesterday. When colleges send out letters, it's because they know about you and are seeking for you to enroll in their school. Okay, so the college is in Columbia, Missouri, which is awfully close to Aaron. Is it a sign, Lord? =D
Tutto sembrera migliore
alla luce che verra dal sole!
Questa notte passera,
il buio che c'e si dissolvera!
Everything will look better,
Under the light that will come from the sun!
This night will be gone,
Darkness will fade out!
Friday I went to school for 1st through 4th, then I left for my appointment with Rhonna. <3 But first, I stopped at McDonalds and got me some lunch. Yum. Ate that in the parking lot of the building, then went inside and up. We had a lovely discussion about Abilene's sudden progression, but to be quite honest, most of the session was spent about me ranting about my totally crappy week. She asked me why Josh and I were still associating with one another if we drive one another crazy. Or rather, why I'm still associating with Josh if he drives me crazy. To be perfectly honest, it's because my disillusionment still sees me with him simply because we're still talking. Yeah, right. I know it's not the truth, but hey, whatever. The circumstances are just different with the 2 of us, so it leads to some confusion on my part.
After my appointment, I went back to school for Pre-Cal, then came home. I made some cupcakes for the Bake Sale at the Mexican Dinner, but I had to go get frosting and stuff for them, so Barbara and I planned on doing that. I was talking to Josh in the meantime, and he was sulking about, like, I have nothing to do, come get dinner with me, blah, so I invited him along for the ride. We picked up buttloads of sweets, then took Josh over to Bueno for some dinner, then came home. He ate whilst I frosted and sprinkled my cupcakes. As that was going on, Leah called him, saying that she needed to go to Wal-Mart to get stuff for the bake sale. I talked to her briefly and said that it was fine if she came over.
She did, and the 3 of us planned on going to Wal-Mart. I called shotgun and Leah insisted on driving, which is what she should have done. Josh drives her car sometimes, but I think that's whack, he's just like, "No, I'm driving." Wrong. So he through a little hissy and got into his car and was in front of us. He turned into Cisco, but Leah and I were like, 'kay then, peace! So we drove to Wal-Mart and he left me a hateful message on my voicemail. So I left him one. Then he left me one. Back and forth and back and forth all night. He left me one message that I will never forgive him for, it was so hateful. Argh! Alright, so that went on until we were leaving Wal-Mart. He and I talked until my phone died, but we established that he was coming back over. Leah and I made her cheesecake brownies, then the 3 of us just sat around all night. I think they left around 1:30 or 2, but it was cool.
I woke up around 11, lazed around the house until Cindy called me, asking if I wanted to move my appointment up. Heck yes! So I got my nails done (they're cool), then I lazed around the house until it was time for the Mexican Dinner. It was alright. We sang our 2 songs, then I ate, bought one of my cupcakes, talked to people, sang again, then left. We actually sounded alright, which was pretty awesome. CCA has been turbulent, to say the least, since Chou ditched us.
Leah and I went to the mall to check out Best Buy after that. I really like it there! I had forgotten how amazing their prices are for PS2 games. <3 Then we walked around the rest of the mall. Zach called whilst we were browsing, and we invited him to come along. He met us there, and we were walking through Best Buy again when we saw the Hudspeths. He asked us what our preference would be for tour groups, and we said the 2 of us, Andy, Aaron, and Holly. I like Holly, and that's fine if she's in our group, but man, if it's not Aaron, Andy, Leah, and I, I do believe I'll cry.
After that, we went to Leah's house and chilled there for a while until Josh showed up. Supposedly, he was just standing at the door, and we all thought we heard something, so Leah and Zach go to the door to check it out, see nothing but a figure, scream, and slam the door. It freaked me out because I was lying in Leah's room. So we talk to him on the phone some, and so he's coming back over.
We sat around and talked, then watched some TV. I was feeling pretty crappy at this point, so I just went home, talked to people some on the internet, and went to bed.
I woke up at 10 this morning, washed my dad's car, then vegged out in front of the TV until I came on here and did this entry. Huzzah.
On another note, I got a letter from Stephens College yesterday. When colleges send out letters, it's because they know about you and are seeking for you to enroll in their school. Okay, so the college is in Columbia, Missouri, which is awfully close to Aaron. Is it a sign, Lord? =D
Tutto sembrera migliore
alla luce che verra dal sole!
Questa notte passera,
il buio che c'e si dissolvera!
Everything will look better,
Under the light that will come from the sun!
This night will be gone,
Darkness will fade out!