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You know, after the past few months of saying girls suck I completely retract that statement. THEY FUCKING RULE!!!! so the few readers I have have asked me about who this Sarah chick is, and well, frankly I was too drunk at the time to tell you. hehehe
So like last weekend, like Thursday, she ims me. We hadn't really talked before, small chit-chat on the bus to and from class if we happened to see each other, but nothing major. So she's totally drunk and I mention I'm doing laundry and she begs to do it for me. Then, the next day she ims me telling me she talked to everyone on her buddy list and wanted to know if she said anything stupid. I said no, and we just started talking. So then, like a few hours later (felt like minutes) we stop talking cause it's like 2 AM. The next night we talk again, same thing......talk for hours and seems like minutes. Then, on SUnday I went over her place for a while, it was slightly awkward considering a few factors: 1) I haven't had to deal with a girl in like 4 months 2) the whole thing with Autumn was going through my head 3) we didn't really know each other that well, we just knew we could talk for a really long time. So I'm over there for a while, we just talked the whole time. It was great! So on Monday my head is racing on what I should do. The thing with Autumn wasn't really a thing, but I was still attracted to her. I told myself at the beginning of the semester I wasn't going to settle, and I thought at that moment that going after Sarah would be giving up. I mean, Sarah isn't as hot as Autumn, but Sarah and I just clicked. So I decide to invite her over to watch a movie on Tuesday before I leave, see what happens. So she comes over, and now it's really awkward for me, cause I'm like, "what should I do? what should I do?" I was going through the should I kiss her or not thing. I didn't, and realized when I left it was a mistake. the whole break I wished I did. I called her on Friday from Troy when I was trashed and we talked for what I'm told was an hour but felt like 10 minutes. Then, when I got back last night, I went over her place right when she got back. I still hadn't unpacked or anything, but I wanted to see her. Amy told me I should just tell her that I forgot to do something before I left and then just kiss her, but I don't have the guts for that stuff. so we're watching the muppets Christmas that she taped for me (how sweet!) and talking. then, I finally go for it and holy shit!! I realized then that this girl was more to me in the past week than I think nay other relationship I've had. yeah, I went out with Laura for 2 and half years, but already in a week Sarah and I can talk like Laura and I could. I mean, we didn't do anything else but kiss, but just laying there with her made me feel so.......... I don't know if I just miss having a girlfriend so much that I'm letting this happen or what, but it feels so great right now.
well that's pretty much my story. other than that, I'm freaking out about finals, every time I think about alcohol I want to vomit, but I have drank since the wonderful Friday night so I'll be ok this weekend. I miss everyone from home already, I can't wait till winter break, and we'll have a nice element to add to our group, A GIRL!!!!! five cheers for Corrine!! no more sausage parties!!! hahahahahahahaha
So like last weekend, like Thursday, she ims me. We hadn't really talked before, small chit-chat on the bus to and from class if we happened to see each other, but nothing major. So she's totally drunk and I mention I'm doing laundry and she begs to do it for me. Then, the next day she ims me telling me she talked to everyone on her buddy list and wanted to know if she said anything stupid. I said no, and we just started talking. So then, like a few hours later (felt like minutes) we stop talking cause it's like 2 AM. The next night we talk again, same thing......talk for hours and seems like minutes. Then, on SUnday I went over her place for a while, it was slightly awkward considering a few factors: 1) I haven't had to deal with a girl in like 4 months 2) the whole thing with Autumn was going through my head 3) we didn't really know each other that well, we just knew we could talk for a really long time. So I'm over there for a while, we just talked the whole time. It was great! So on Monday my head is racing on what I should do. The thing with Autumn wasn't really a thing, but I was still attracted to her. I told myself at the beginning of the semester I wasn't going to settle, and I thought at that moment that going after Sarah would be giving up. I mean, Sarah isn't as hot as Autumn, but Sarah and I just clicked. So I decide to invite her over to watch a movie on Tuesday before I leave, see what happens. So she comes over, and now it's really awkward for me, cause I'm like, "what should I do? what should I do?" I was going through the should I kiss her or not thing. I didn't, and realized when I left it was a mistake. the whole break I wished I did. I called her on Friday from Troy when I was trashed and we talked for what I'm told was an hour but felt like 10 minutes. Then, when I got back last night, I went over her place right when she got back. I still hadn't unpacked or anything, but I wanted to see her. Amy told me I should just tell her that I forgot to do something before I left and then just kiss her, but I don't have the guts for that stuff. so we're watching the muppets Christmas that she taped for me (how sweet!) and talking. then, I finally go for it and holy shit!! I realized then that this girl was more to me in the past week than I think nay other relationship I've had. yeah, I went out with Laura for 2 and half years, but already in a week Sarah and I can talk like Laura and I could. I mean, we didn't do anything else but kiss, but just laying there with her made me feel so.......... I don't know if I just miss having a girlfriend so much that I'm letting this happen or what, but it feels so great right now.
well that's pretty much my story. other than that, I'm freaking out about finals, every time I think about alcohol I want to vomit, but I have drank since the wonderful Friday night so I'll be ok this weekend. I miss everyone from home already, I can't wait till winter break, and we'll have a nice element to add to our group, A GIRL!!!!! five cheers for Corrine!! no more sausage parties!!! hahahahahahahaha