oh boy, this is it

[ichabob]

well, this entry is to clarify

i did not claim anyone to brainwash me

i did not pretend to believe anything

i do not think anyone is entertainment value, but rather only that when chris gets in a media-like discussion it is always entertaining

i put down no one

i only want the Truth

i know all this because i have the conversation in my room

i believe in nothing because of no one

a tradgedy all has been misunderstood

i only wish to learn

i tried to tell you, but you wouldnt listen

i feel like i have been betrayed by a father

but rather than believe he betrayed me, i would rather believe he was never there

denial it may be

or maybe acceptance of the Truth

i cant say for sure

i can only say im sorry

i needed help, and no help came

it broke my heart

im as angry as i've ever been because i loved him

and he turned his face

i guess i just wasnt worth it