no im not ranting..nor am I trying to be a drama queen again v.v
Im so sick of having rumours spread about me...Im sick of being told lies..it hurts more than anyone could know..and I dont want to handle it anymore..my 7th class is so arrogant and I keep getting harrassed by the other classmates...Im loosing people left and right..my life is going down the drain..how the hell am I supposed to stay sane?..I keep screwing up wherever I go..god it seems like god hates me..is there even a God to tamper with?..what the hell is my life screwing up for..Im Failing and god is laughing at me..I cant take it anymore..I dont want this life..I keep getting hurt wherever I go..yes Ive told lies..yes Ive corrupted people..but Ive also always asked for forgiveness..yet they've never forgiven me. They say they never heard me but yet I still try to make my self heard..So Dont judge a book by its cover..dont judge me..Im not a toy of your life or game..I was bought to make a couples life happier..so I just feel more degrated than ever before..so..do you even care enough to write here?..tell me to stop before I go on and tell me to think that alot of people I know love me still? For who I am even?..If you did know me..would you know my deepest secrets? Could you look at my drawings and know whats on my mind?..Read what I have to say and pretend to hold me?..even pretend to at least care?..Im sorry for destroying everyone I know..Apparently its all I do know..So now I leave with this..a picture of how I may end up..if you even care to see..that may soon just be me..
..wow there is something wrong with me
..wow there is something wrong with me