Take in a deep breath, Now run.
Now I don't know where to run to. It seems like I've hit the proverbial end of the road at this point.
I left Macon because it just wasn't for me. However, when i see indigodaisy's pics of the school and I recognize Smith Hall... Main Hall, i just tear up. I remember sitting in Smith Hall, listening to the shitty IST lectures on food and god knows what. I remember listening to Orson Scott Card rant about something or other but not really caring because SHIT, its Orson Scott Card. I remember listening to that one guy who debunks "traditional music". I actually have one of his poster. Steve has it. Fucker.
God. I remember watching Trisha Brown and her dance company on that stage.
I remember myself on that stage.
I danced on the same stage that many great people (martha graham, paul taylor, trisha brown) stood upon and I just now realize the implications. Why did I leave? Many reasons. Too many reasons. And now sometimes I look back and not feel regret but a sense of... whatever the word is.
And even if I did stay, I can conjecture about how I would be sitting there wishing I was back in Texas. Or maybe being too drunk to care with my already shit GPA tanking. Even if I did stay, i'd sense that i'd be a little bit more desperate for male attention, traveling an hour or so in any direction, trying to find some sort of validation through whatever grab-ass popped collar fratty mcfratboy (yes i know i'm in a sorority) that was there.
Now I'm here and I like it. I'm a lot happier than I ever was at Macon. But now I feel like I need to run away again. I feel like I just need to get the fuck out of here.
I need to get away from everything bad in my world and I know that if I'm still physically here, I'll just keep being tempted to just hang around. And that's not good.
So here's a fuck you to everyone who deserves it. kthx.
I've been obsessed with album art now that i can display it on my ipod. holla!
New CDs in no particular order:
The Fray - How to Save a Life (I almost typed out Frat, lol. oh shit)
Bob Dylan - Best Of
Snow Patrol - Eyes Open
White Stripes - Elephant
Beatles - Love (cirque du soleil soundtrack)
Ugly Casanova - Sharpen Your Teeth
Beirut - Gulag Orkestar
Massive Attack - Mezzanine (took me awhile to get this CD.. a few years, but i got it, lol)
Decemberists - Castaways and Cutouts
Decemberists - Crane Wife
Decemberists - The Tain
Radiohead - Kid A
and s'more. Any suggestions? I'm looking to get either Ben Kweller or some random EPs off of my music subscription service. Not to mention i have a million albums i have yet to actually LISTEN to.
But. VIDEO IPODZ I AM SO EXCITED LIKE WHOA!
I left Macon because it just wasn't for me. However, when i see indigodaisy's pics of the school and I recognize Smith Hall... Main Hall, i just tear up. I remember sitting in Smith Hall, listening to the shitty IST lectures on food and god knows what. I remember listening to Orson Scott Card rant about something or other but not really caring because SHIT, its Orson Scott Card. I remember listening to that one guy who debunks "traditional music". I actually have one of his poster. Steve has it. Fucker.
God. I remember watching Trisha Brown and her dance company on that stage.
I remember myself on that stage.
I danced on the same stage that many great people (martha graham, paul taylor, trisha brown) stood upon and I just now realize the implications. Why did I leave? Many reasons. Too many reasons. And now sometimes I look back and not feel regret but a sense of... whatever the word is.
And even if I did stay, I can conjecture about how I would be sitting there wishing I was back in Texas. Or maybe being too drunk to care with my already shit GPA tanking. Even if I did stay, i'd sense that i'd be a little bit more desperate for male attention, traveling an hour or so in any direction, trying to find some sort of validation through whatever grab-ass popped collar fratty mcfratboy (yes i know i'm in a sorority) that was there.
Now I'm here and I like it. I'm a lot happier than I ever was at Macon. But now I feel like I need to run away again. I feel like I just need to get the fuck out of here.
I need to get away from everything bad in my world and I know that if I'm still physically here, I'll just keep being tempted to just hang around. And that's not good.
So here's a fuck you to everyone who deserves it. kthx.
I've been obsessed with album art now that i can display it on my ipod. holla!
New CDs in no particular order:
The Fray - How to Save a Life (I almost typed out Frat, lol. oh shit)
Bob Dylan - Best Of
Snow Patrol - Eyes Open
White Stripes - Elephant
Beatles - Love (cirque du soleil soundtrack)
Ugly Casanova - Sharpen Your Teeth
Beirut - Gulag Orkestar
Massive Attack - Mezzanine (took me awhile to get this CD.. a few years, but i got it, lol)
Decemberists - Castaways and Cutouts
Decemberists - Crane Wife
Decemberists - The Tain
Radiohead - Kid A
and s'more. Any suggestions? I'm looking to get either Ben Kweller or some random EPs off of my music subscription service. Not to mention i have a million albums i have yet to actually LISTEN to.
But. VIDEO IPODZ I AM SO EXCITED LIKE WHOA!