Thoughts and worries again.
I have come again. To post what I can of all my worries that have been thought up in my mind. I have been into my thinking again, and as I have said before. Thinking isn't all that good for me(most days). Depending on what I'm thinking of. So for the last few days I have been thinking of the same thing, and I thought someone solved it for me one day, but I was wrong. The thought just came back. I don't know if I want to let the thought out. It could just make it all worse, and I don't want things worse because if this gets worse then what it is, I would, well, I don't know what I would really do, but I would back into depressin once again. Maybe I should just say it, it might even make things better, but what if they don't what will I do then. It hurts that I can't tell anyone all of what I feel, but if I say it here maybe everyone could help with little bits of it each doing what they do best. But still that thought remains, will it make it worse.
Ok, I'm just going to say it though I may regret saying it by tomorrow. I have to get it out. I have had this taroble feeling that Tom is going to break up with me. I even feel sick writing the words. The tears are coming to my eyes even. Early today I almost had a panic attack because of the kids I was watching and this is all that I could think of. I'm glade Lace was there to take care of the kids during this period of time. I don't even know why I have this feeling Tom hasn't even been weird or anything. I don't know. Maybe I'm just stupid to evne say it. Ok that's enough of this.
I brought Tom with me to Duluth with me last weekend. Most of the time we were there we were sleeping, but we had fun anyway. I never knew that Tom had never spent time in Duluth before last weekend. We stayed in a hotel room with my Aunt. He meet my grandpa, grandma, mom, brother, mom's feonsay,and all my little cousins. I hope that he had fun to.
You know that now that I have said it out in the open I feel much better about it. I don't know why but I do, and I'm glade ,too. Well I think that's all for now. So I will talk to you all later hopefully.
Angel
Ok, I'm just going to say it though I may regret saying it by tomorrow. I have to get it out. I have had this taroble feeling that Tom is going to break up with me. I even feel sick writing the words. The tears are coming to my eyes even. Early today I almost had a panic attack because of the kids I was watching and this is all that I could think of. I'm glade Lace was there to take care of the kids during this period of time. I don't even know why I have this feeling Tom hasn't even been weird or anything. I don't know. Maybe I'm just stupid to evne say it. Ok that's enough of this.
I brought Tom with me to Duluth with me last weekend. Most of the time we were there we were sleeping, but we had fun anyway. I never knew that Tom had never spent time in Duluth before last weekend. We stayed in a hotel room with my Aunt. He meet my grandpa, grandma, mom, brother, mom's feonsay,and all my little cousins. I hope that he had fun to.
You know that now that I have said it out in the open I feel much better about it. I don't know why but I do, and I'm glade ,too. Well I think that's all for now. So I will talk to you all later hopefully.
Angel