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ok well this is like a once a 3 month thing so..
alright back again..
so to whoever is reading this
you'll be able to pry into what's been going through my mind the past.. 2 months or so
i'd like to start off by saying im doing just wonderful
just my whole life in general is just excellent
my friends are the shit, thanks cody, dave, fucking everyone i talk to in school.. or online
you guys are the ones who make this life worth living, you know?
i've realized something.
i've spent so much time in the past feeling sorry for myself
i thought that i had gaps in my life that i needed to fill
but it hit me you know like "fuck!"
honestly if you look at the life that we're living right now
we have everything we could possibly need
everything.
sure there are things that we want but you know you're just giong
to have to fucking deal with it.
also, shit happens. people sit around like oh shit this and this happened
sorry if this makes me sound like a dick but fuck you.. what are you going to do about it?
you know? is feeling sorry for yourself going to solve anything?
honestly, people dont really give a shit about anyone but themselvs.
well they do.. but to a certain extent.
people can care less if other people talk behind your back
they dont really give a shit about the bad points in your life
as long as you make them enjoy the moment.. thats all that matters to us
if you guys remember how i was..
which is mostly all of you
considering i keep in touch with a maximum of 5 people
literally
you'll remember a hopeless romatinc
a fucking mess
cant get his shit together
but you know.. im totally over that now
i've wasted so much time trying to find a girl
and i've just let myself down so many times
i realized that i dont need that shit in my life right now
i have so much more to worry about
school, hockey, family, work
i just cant deal with it
so i kind of just said to myself
you know what, if they're not going to offer up their time with you
why waste your time with them
..dont get me wrong though
im not saying that i dont want a girlfriend
im just saying that im done looking
and i dont even know what it is.. im fucking hot
must be my personality
theres just some shit that i dont get
tonight.. april 23rd
i went to this kids house and like people were drunk or drinking or whatever
and im not saying like ohh drinking
gay
i hate people who drink
i mean whatever.. its your thing if you do it thats cool with me
i just dont get it.
i mean i can have a good time not drinking
but then again i spend about 98% of my free time in front of my computer
which some people think is really fucking pathetic but whatever
you have your own thing
and i have mine
anyway i just dont get the whole drinking thing
i suppose its one of those things that you have to do to understand it
but for now.. im cool
i've been a very iratable guy lately.
thats kind of who i am i guess
people just.. i dont know.. they do the right things to get on my nerves
i have absoutley no tolerance for ignorance
it fucking amazes me about how stupid people can be
i think there is no lamer thing in the world than someone talking like they know shit
someone who tries to tell you something that, not only you know, but something that you have expierenced
something different.
people can be so stubborn and thats what gets on my nerves.
like i know i overreact but thats something i really cant help
and if you're stupid enough to have me lash out at you
you deserve it
simple as that
..but sorry in advance cause chances are that im going to blow up at you
because 90% of the people i know
are fucking retarded
no offense, if i really cared then you wouldnt be my friend
alright im not going to lie to you
i dont get why people insist on putting lyrics on away messages
on their profiles on aim
or update their livejournal with nothing but.. lyrics
i dont know about you but i dont read these
at all
for one the lyrics mean nothing to me
i dont care if a something corporate song is your favorite song at the moment
i dont care if thats how you're feeling at the moment
are you too stupid to acutally say how you feel
you have to use a song?
besides the song probably sucks anyway
i know this isnt giong to stop people from putting up lyrics
but you know.. whatever
ok.. this whole thing about drama
i hear so many people talk and they're like
OMG THERS SO MUCH DRAMA GOING ON
i fucking hate rochester.. blah blah drama whatever the fuck you kids talk about these days
ok, if you're involved with any drama
you set yourself up to be in that situation
people dont understand the concept of consequence
if you're not prepared for all the shit that comes from your bad judgement
you should.. just fucking kill yourself right now or something
cause chances are you fucked up recently
and you're crying right now because of it
and p.s no one cares really to begin with
so dont cry in school
for me at least.
its so funny seeing all this unwrap in front of your eyes
not naming any names
but in school
whoever was like omg everyones talking so much shit about me
i fucking hate it
they said i did this at a party
blah blah im crying cause im a fucking wet piece of pussy shit
...same conversation like 20 seconds later...
OH YEAH. did you hear about how much shit is going down this weekend
...incredible, thats all i have to say about that
people are fucking retarded
but then again i dont care.. the person that said this is acutally my friend
just
you know.. if you realize this is you
whatever its your thing
not passing judgement toward our friendship
dude and what the fuck is this drama shit anyway
i just dont really give a shit about anything anymore
i just dont feel like dealing with assholes that cry for sympathy
thats another reason why i sit at my computer all day and check peoples away messages
..so um i got a job
at ah! mooré
coffee shop/deli, ish
its just like panera.. put it that way
only we're into coffee more than baked goods
and its actually pretty excellent
everyone i work with.. with the exception of cody is like 19 or older
im like the youngest kid that works there
whatever its cool
i never realized this
but that whole like drama thing
follows you
people at my work can make such a big deal over nothing
i cant even get into it its so rediculious
you'd think that as you grow older you become.. more mature
which is true in a lot of aspects but i dunno 19-25 year olds are just as stubborn as you and i
i think pride has a lot to do with it.
humans can't live with the fact that they can be outdone by one of thier peers
i've gotten past that
acceptance is key
if you're not good enough.. then deal with it
my best is good enough for me.. regardless of how other people view it
because this is my life
i dont have to please anybody
people spend so much time trying to please others
they end up letting themselvs down because as humans, we're selfish
but that just proves my point even further
people are selfish becasue they want to be happy
..i dont even know where im going with this
but if you realize
this is your life.. you dont have to live up to expectations
you should only have one expectation
to live your life for yourself
not others
people get caught up in this lifestyle
they feel like they should be noticed, you know?
and this is like 90% of the people i know
most of my friends are like this
not all but most
and i think people would be so much
happier
and content
with their life
if they realized that all this shit doesnt matter.
its so cliché saying
oh 20 years from now it wont matter how many friends you had
but its so true
ok change of pace
people are such pussies
they cant take criticism
they cant take shit for what it is
again they cant deal with the consequences of their actions
people are so fucking sensitive
chill the fuck out you know
damn.
this was real fucking long and chances are you didnt read all of it
but lets recap
mike is
-real happy at the moment
-a fucking insensitive asshole
..but doesnt really give a damn that you think that
thinks people should
-stop putting lyrics everywhere
-grow up
-realize that they should live life for themselvs and not others
-take responsibility for their actions
-and use this
