The war is over but I still fight with myself [audio]
--PERSONAL DATA LOG 20XX03.16.017 SAMUS ARAN. RECORDING...--
...So the war has ended. The aparoids have been defeated, and there were no known casualties at the school.
I... almost had one. To think Snake fought such an enemy in the past, one that could so easily manipulate people around him like puppets. I became my own worst nightmare, completely helpless to do anything other than destroy everyone I love and care around me while Psycho Mantis laughed it up.
....My Power Suit is completely FUCKED. I even took out Metal Gear REX's legs before they stopped me I just... I...
A walking weapon. That's what I was. I continued to think that as I laid in the infirmary bed. Were things so chaotic and confusing they could not even risk bringing me to my ship? I trust their judgment but I... never felt so alone in my life.
And I've been alone for so long in my life...
...then on Friday the 13th we had to fight Giygas. Or... an aparoid of it, rather. It awoke a nameless fear in my heart. I was in the infirmary at the time, completely helpless. I can't believe Ness and Jeff and the others took the real version on by themselves. I don't think I could have done anything anyway, but I heard Paula's voice call out to me, and everyone started praying. Giygas was defeated with everyone praying together.
But all that's over.
I still can't believe I let that happen... I could have... It makes me so angry. And scared. I shouldn't be so close. And yet...
Snake came to me after all that... he still...
I don't know what to think.
I really don't...
--...END RECORDING.--
...So the war has ended. The aparoids have been defeated, and there were no known casualties at the school.
I... almost had one. To think Snake fought such an enemy in the past, one that could so easily manipulate people around him like puppets. I became my own worst nightmare, completely helpless to do anything other than destroy everyone I love and care around me while Psycho Mantis laughed it up.
....My Power Suit is completely FUCKED. I even took out Metal Gear REX's legs before they stopped me I just... I...
A walking weapon. That's what I was. I continued to think that as I laid in the infirmary bed. Were things so chaotic and confusing they could not even risk bringing me to my ship? I trust their judgment but I... never felt so alone in my life.
And I've been alone for so long in my life...
...then on Friday the 13th we had to fight Giygas. Or... an aparoid of it, rather. It awoke a nameless fear in my heart. I was in the infirmary at the time, completely helpless. I can't believe Ness and Jeff and the others took the real version on by themselves. I don't think I could have done anything anyway, but I heard Paula's voice call out to me, and everyone started praying. Giygas was defeated with everyone praying together.
But all that's over.
I still can't believe I let that happen... I could have... It makes me so angry. And scared. I shouldn't be so close. And yet...
Snake came to me after all that... he still...
I don't know what to think.
I really don't...
--...END RECORDING.--