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Thats a few things that have been on my mind lately. I know I'm going to regret posting this, but oh well.
Thats a few things that have been on my mind lately. I know I'm going to regret posting this, but oh well.
I'm not going to point out your recent faults, at least yet, because truthfully, I believe you owe someone a pure and sincere apology. (It's not me, I can assure you of that.)
Risa, frankly, I can't tell you much about your lonliness other than that you're creating it yourself. I know you want to have irl friends, and I know they've treated you poorly all your life, but maybe part of it is your own fault? Closing your heart off to me and Shura won't ease the lonliness you feel, it'll make it worse, much much worse. You have true friends, and you're trying to push us away, one by one. If that happens, you'll have no one to blame but yourself. This isn't mean to be mean, and I'm sorry if you take it that way, but it's the truth. The pure, honest, cold truth. No one's going to blame you for the way you feel. I see it as almost a figment of your imagination. *shakes head* We all do that, believe me.
Riku hasn't been on alot lately and I hate to say it, but it's almost a good thing. I haven't really been going insane without her as I usually do.
Hehe, anothing thing we, sadly, have in common. Except, replacing my name with yours. I wasn't sure how to tell you this at first, but, now I can. I feel almost as if you're stalking me in a sense. So, whenever you'd left, I was almost relieved. That's not good, but it's true.
Besides that, Mandy and Dan are only a few states away. The distance is bad enough now. I don't want to increase the distance by moving to Colorado. I also feel as if they both trust me alot more then Riku and Patricia do.
More shit. Shura-chan and I both trust you with our lives, Risa. And, it pains me slightly to think that you've been feeling otherwise. We just want you to tell us what you're dealing with so we can settle it, and not have to go through huge fights and separations. That would hurt you more than any of us, and you know it.
Heh, if I spoke to my aunt about this I'd probably get the speech of that it's my own fault for not believing in God.
Risa, your aunt's right. Though speeches are useless unless you're a believer, because it only pushes people away. I wish that you would at least try to look into Christianity, believing in something greater than yourself, that you can actually have a friend in, really keeps lonliness away. It's your decision to try it, and I won't force you to, but you have no idea what it would mean to me if you honestly started to believe, and not just for me. You'd only be hurting yourself if you did that.
and Patricia who seems to only care about bitching about her sister. Yes we all have siblings who give us grief, get over it.
That, in a sense, is rather hypocritical, in my opinion. If it were her bitching about "friends", I do believe that your statement could be thrown back at you with full force. I won't, but that's my opinion.
I want to be able to tell Patricia I am not happy that she has nagged at me to post in the guild.
If I'm not mistaken, that's what you've been doing to the rest of us, ne?
I want to tell both her and Riku that I am not planning to come out to Colorado. Maybe for a visit someday, but not yet.
So? Just tell us. We'll understand. It's not telling us that will get us annoyed and angry.
If you end up bitching at me for this, go right on ahead. I can't stop you, but I make no promises on how I'll react. Honestly, if you need to bitch at me for this, go right on ahead. It's torture enough to see you force burdens and scars onto yourself, you needn't add more to yourself.
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