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I'm horrible at picking up the phone and making the calls I need to. I'm horrible at the big gesture and telling people how I really feel.
It's been 3 weeks since I've talked to Georgetown boy and it's getting to the point that if I wait any longer, I'll have lost him forever.
The first week I avoided the call because I was too hurt and angry. The second week I pretended to not care. And this week? I care. A lot. I miss him. At first I thought I missed the relationship aspect, but no, I miss him. I miss his nerdiness, his inability to tell a story in under 20 minutes, his odd love for folk music, and his extensive excitement for food. I should make the call. I should be mature enough to say I'm sorry. I should be better at this.
There are so many shoulds in our lives. I just want some certainty. I've already put myself out there, what more can I do?
I'm trying this thing where I keep in touch with people. I'm really going to try and return phone calls and make some on my own. That's my big goal for right now. Life is too short and too important to lose people just because of distance. I've really missed out some relationships because I've let people slip away. This is my big gesture.
And as a side note: I'm doing ok after the whole accident thing. Thanks for everyone sending their love, it meant more to me than most of you will ever know.
It's been 3 weeks since I've talked to Georgetown boy and it's getting to the point that if I wait any longer, I'll have lost him forever.
The first week I avoided the call because I was too hurt and angry. The second week I pretended to not care. And this week? I care. A lot. I miss him. At first I thought I missed the relationship aspect, but no, I miss him. I miss his nerdiness, his inability to tell a story in under 20 minutes, his odd love for folk music, and his extensive excitement for food. I should make the call. I should be mature enough to say I'm sorry. I should be better at this.
There are so many shoulds in our lives. I just want some certainty. I've already put myself out there, what more can I do?
I'm trying this thing where I keep in touch with people. I'm really going to try and return phone calls and make some on my own. That's my big goal for right now. Life is too short and too important to lose people just because of distance. I've really missed out some relationships because I've let people slip away. This is my big gesture.
And as a side note: I'm doing ok after the whole accident thing. Thanks for everyone sending their love, it meant more to me than most of you will ever know.