016 → thin line
there is so many things i want to write about....so little time, recently my days looks more or less like that: wake up, go to work, come home around 11 pm, check LJ/the sites i always check, go sleep, sometimes with a side addiction of wasting my time on SS501....
so
work....it isn't all that perfect like i thought....closer to my 'freak out' post...searching new one in June is very possible
thin line.....the thin line between success or failure.....and one of those things i will experience once exam's results are out.....i was checking Korean philology forum and i freaked out after i read some things....what if i made mistake....what if i am actually not ready for any way of commitment, because choosing studies is commitment..
and then there is that thin line of being over possessive and letting people overuse you....between acting like a bitch and being too nice...the thin line that always goes with that dammed file sharing....and it upsets me that so little people is willing to vote in that dammed icons contest yet there is so many ready to grab the DLs i post..
and then there is my roommate's sister...why she is staying 4th night? and my friend who wants to come here and acts like my flat was a hotel....people with jobs do not travel around during weekdays, you know? so why you ask me to tell you if my roommate will be going somewhere, she won't be..
and there is SuJu.....i tried to avoid all those 13+/only13 posts, commenting on them.....but today i broke down....actually i think this is the most sensible thing i wrote in ages...my views changed a bit that for sure....i am so sick of reading about it again and again, constant fighting, constant judging, constant telling what people should do with their lives/time..constant third world countries crap, people trying to stir controversy and start the fighting again.......i am sick...this and lack of time is probably the reason why i stopped focusing on them so much.....why we all can't stop that? the fighting, the bringing this issue over and over again...why people can't tell themselves....'I support SJM, I am so freaking happy for them but at the same time I accept others can support only13 and stop continuously bash ELF'...or 'SJM is happening, if people are happy for them, that is fine...because it is up to me if i will support them or not...and what others will do, not my business'
as for me? I wish i was excited, I wish i was happy seeing Hannie happy (*points to translations of his recent CY entry*)...but i am not...i am not sad either...i am indifferent, when i shouldn't be....when i should be happy for them...
and you know what is the best? here is my original comment, sb replied to it saying they agree with me...then the poster replied 'We have accepted they are ONLY13 which is why we made this! We aren't getting along this was put up so for the debut those who aren't only 13 have something to fall back on.' and she disabled comments, with the addiction of 'No more of the "MY SIDE IS BETTER" crap. Really. I did this to make SJM fans feel better about themselves. Some side is always going to play victim or something.' to original post......accepted, really? if you did there would be sole mention of the name/color they chosen, without all the bashing...if they did there wouldn't be people screaming 'SuJu is 15 now', if they did there wouldn't be people crossposting certain things to SuJu comm, if they did there wouldn't be discussion how Soompi thread sucks and who will start the SJM thread....there just wouldn't be....but your own shit doesn't stink, right? that is one of the things that throws me away the most from SJM...the constant ELF bashing while some of the SJM fans doesn't act any better......why stressing so much what makes us different, why not focusing on what unites us?
but enough of that....
the bright side? new FTI songs...absolutely gorgeous!...and the Double the gay aka Double SS....i don't know how i went from 'I won't get into them' to 'I absolutely love them' but it happened......i think the fact that Hyun Joong is so gorgeous and Jung Min smiles like sun helped too, but i digress.....I actually adore some of their Japanese songs too....especially Kokoro...
anyway I wanted to add Pavla ILU ♥, but now i hate you, Finnish DDD:
oh, and i think this month i am finally getting digi cam....your life will be destroyed :PP!!!!!...beddo taimu for miss Myouu!
meme thing that i have stolen from lovetrick
- September 7 -
You are very clever and knowledgeable. You are very calm and cool in social situations. You are kind and sympathetic to people, although you like to choose your friends carefully.
Positive Traits:intelligent, ethical, analytical, photographic memory, intuitive
Negative Traits:overly introverted, eccentric, uncommunicative, selfishness, cynicism
'What does your Birthdate mean?' at QuizGalaxy.com
i iz no selfish *cries*...but i agree more or less with the rest
so
work....it isn't all that perfect like i thought....closer to my 'freak out' post...searching new one in June is very possible
thin line.....the thin line between success or failure.....and one of those things i will experience once exam's results are out.....i was checking Korean philology forum and i freaked out after i read some things....what if i made mistake....what if i am actually not ready for any way of commitment, because choosing studies is commitment..
and then there is that thin line of being over possessive and letting people overuse you....between acting like a bitch and being too nice...the thin line that always goes with that dammed file sharing....and it upsets me that so little people is willing to vote in that dammed icons contest yet there is so many ready to grab the DLs i post..
and then there is my roommate's sister...why she is staying 4th night? and my friend who wants to come here and acts like my flat was a hotel....people with jobs do not travel around during weekdays, you know? so why you ask me to tell you if my roommate will be going somewhere, she won't be..
and there is SuJu.....i tried to avoid all those 13+/only13 posts, commenting on them.....but today i broke down....actually i think this is the most sensible thing i wrote in ages...my views changed a bit that for sure....i am so sick of reading about it again and again, constant fighting, constant judging, constant telling what people should do with their lives/time..constant third world countries crap, people trying to stir controversy and start the fighting again.......i am sick...this and lack of time is probably the reason why i stopped focusing on them so much.....why we all can't stop that? the fighting, the bringing this issue over and over again...why people can't tell themselves....'I support SJM, I am so freaking happy for them but at the same time I accept others can support only13 and stop continuously bash ELF'...or 'SJM is happening, if people are happy for them, that is fine...because it is up to me if i will support them or not...and what others will do, not my business'
as for me? I wish i was excited, I wish i was happy seeing Hannie happy (*points to translations of his recent CY entry*)...but i am not...i am not sad either...i am indifferent, when i shouldn't be....when i should be happy for them...
and you know what is the best? here is my original comment, sb replied to it saying they agree with me...then the poster replied 'We have accepted they are ONLY13 which is why we made this! We aren't getting along this was put up so for the debut those who aren't only 13 have something to fall back on.' and she disabled comments, with the addiction of 'No more of the "MY SIDE IS BETTER" crap. Really. I did this to make SJM fans feel better about themselves. Some side is always going to play victim or something.' to original post......accepted, really? if you did there would be sole mention of the name/color they chosen, without all the bashing...if they did there wouldn't be people screaming 'SuJu is 15 now', if they did there wouldn't be people crossposting certain things to SuJu comm, if they did there wouldn't be discussion how Soompi thread sucks and who will start the SJM thread....there just wouldn't be....but your own shit doesn't stink, right? that is one of the things that throws me away the most from SJM...the constant ELF bashing while some of the SJM fans doesn't act any better......why stressing so much what makes us different, why not focusing on what unites us?
but enough of that....
the bright side? new FTI songs...absolutely gorgeous!...and the Double the gay aka Double SS....i don't know how i went from 'I won't get into them' to 'I absolutely love them' but it happened......i think the fact that Hyun Joong is so gorgeous and Jung Min smiles like sun helped too, but i digress.....I actually adore some of their Japanese songs too....especially Kokoro...
anyway I wanted to add Pavla ILU ♥, but now i hate you, Finnish DDD:
oh, and i think this month i am finally getting digi cam....your life will be destroyed :PP!!!!!...beddo taimu for miss Myouu!
meme thing that i have stolen from lovetrick
- September 7 -
You are very clever and knowledgeable. You are very calm and cool in social situations. You are kind and sympathetic to people, although you like to choose your friends carefully.
Positive Traits:intelligent, ethical, analytical, photographic memory, intuitive
Negative Traits:overly introverted, eccentric, uncommunicative, selfishness, cynicism
'What does your Birthdate mean?' at QuizGalaxy.com
i iz no selfish *cries*...but i agree more or less with the rest