Out of place?
I'm not feeling quite like myself lately. It's an odd, disjointed feeling that I havent really been able to place. It's like I'm missing something, or just not doing something that I should. I feel like something's off... But, I have no idea what. Who knows, maybe I'll get a better sense of it from this post... so here's life. Still working at First Data, and the job's still tolerable. It has some annoyances, but the paychecks still draw me in pretty well. I don't get to chat with Moriah as much (the 6ft brunette, kinky write for a music magazine) because she got moved to another product, (multiple business subcontract to us, and each is broken up into a sperate section of the offices, she's in a diff one now) and so far, haven't really found anyone I enjoy chatting/flirting with as much as her. Moriah has a b/f though, so the flirting was never going to go anywhere, but it killed time. I can bring a book to pass the time, so work's still ok. School's it's usual dull self, so it has no real effect on me right now. Onto what little social life I have. I've been able to make it to my dance class lately, which is both good and bad. Good, because I do enjoy dancing, but bad because of the reason you're expecting. I don't have a partner... I'm the trade-off guy. Most of the couples there are just that, couples. A bf/gf there dancing together. The problem for me, is there's the whole couple dance, the little kisses, the giggling, and dozens of other little quirky things couples do. Salt in an old wound for me. Happy couples, enjoying being together... The experience I never experience... I usually dance with a girl named Ladonna, who comes alone, because her b/f works. Though the past few times, I've been getting to dance with Mary. Mary's one of the veterans for the class, (she's been there longer than anyone, including me, though she was gone for like 6 months) and she's a fun partner. Real cutie too. ;) She's like 5'4, and very nicely built, ;) and she has kinda elven features. Slim, arched eyebrows, a slender, kind of delicate chin, nice lips.... And the body of a dancer. ;) (Ok, so I've always had a bit of a thing for her. Quit laughing :P) Thing is, she's just coming out of a kinda bad breakup, and her self confidence seems to be pretty much shot. She doesn't think she's attractive, despite my attempts to convince her, and she thinks I'm flirting just to make her feel better. And she's a really nice girl too... Not just cute, but smart, energetic, and lately her sense of humor's gotten a bit dry, little acidic, heheh she's great. But, alas, as usual, no interest. Oh well, shall see what comes of that, though I expect a good friendship with her will be the most likely thing. No romance forthcoming for me. *smirk* She's swearing off men after the last one... I don't think he counts as a true man, but I never did like him. Ah well.... The Caddy's running good now, but is waiting for fresh rubber. Current set of tires is pretty bald... Ok, that's an understatement, 2 tires have threads showing, and the other 2 are nearly slicks as well. It's not going anywhere until I get some new tires. Got a 14.1 at the track last time I went, and was seeing no traction. I may try again once the new rubber gets here, so I can get into the 13's. Shall see on that, and that's the bulk of my life right now. I feel better as usual... This is good stuff. :)