"i wish"
"i wish for a lap top" click click click BOOM
"i wish for a monster truck" click click click BOOM
"i wish for a rainbow" click click click BOOM
"i wish for rain in the desert" click click click BOOM
"i wish for a mansion" click click click BOOM
"i wish that mommy and daddy never broke up" CLICK CLICK CLICK BOOM!!!!!
... Nathanial said. and Alissa intoned "because then we wouldnt have to go back and forth and ..." but i wasnt listening, i didnt need to.
i understand.
the fighting. the courts, the instability... hows a seven year old to understand?
hows a seven year old to know? what is better or worse for him?
75 bucks can seem like... all hes ever wanted. can spend his money, tax returns seem like... gold.
hows a seven year old to know? what his father went through? how to make the coises, right.
hows he to know, where to go? when it looks like we're completely broke. when it looks like.... at one home... the rules are... dont think, play your game, watch your movie, do your chores... listen to my lies. and he will learn, lies make life easy. why not?
and other home, the rules are, think, know, behave, learn.... but not easy, not simple, and definately... emotional.
but no soap in the mouth.. how can you live with, being violated?
fighting, how is he suposed to remember, what the fights were about? or if they even happened at all?
and the other question...
me?
love me? hate me? am i having any impact? would life be better without? questions...
and Rob felt pain, because he loves me, and told him so. and that made me feel... i feel, too many things to tell.
afraid, because, your learning, new things everyday, about another girl.
afraid because your afraid, you might.... because im afraid theirs something ... scary ... going on.
"i wish for a monster truck" click click click BOOM
"i wish for a rainbow" click click click BOOM
"i wish for rain in the desert" click click click BOOM
"i wish for a mansion" click click click BOOM
"i wish that mommy and daddy never broke up" CLICK CLICK CLICK BOOM!!!!!
... Nathanial said. and Alissa intoned "because then we wouldnt have to go back and forth and ..." but i wasnt listening, i didnt need to.
i understand.
the fighting. the courts, the instability... hows a seven year old to understand?
hows a seven year old to know? what is better or worse for him?
75 bucks can seem like... all hes ever wanted. can spend his money, tax returns seem like... gold.
hows a seven year old to know? what his father went through? how to make the coises, right.
hows he to know, where to go? when it looks like we're completely broke. when it looks like.... at one home... the rules are... dont think, play your game, watch your movie, do your chores... listen to my lies. and he will learn, lies make life easy. why not?
and other home, the rules are, think, know, behave, learn.... but not easy, not simple, and definately... emotional.
but no soap in the mouth.. how can you live with, being violated?
fighting, how is he suposed to remember, what the fights were about? or if they even happened at all?
and the other question...
me?
love me? hate me? am i having any impact? would life be better without? questions...
and Rob felt pain, because he loves me, and told him so. and that made me feel... i feel, too many things to tell.
afraid, because, your learning, new things everyday, about another girl.
afraid because your afraid, you might.... because im afraid theirs something ... scary ... going on.