education
is climbing
upward
out of the hole
out of the mud
climbing upward
and realization
and college, im realizing
is really focusing in on
careers.
ive never thought about education as geared toward a specific... goal
ive never thought that "here, this is what you want, this is what you do"
ive never realized that...... being human takes.... rules
rude rules
and i also realize that....
im crazy
to take on
this chalange
to take up all my time
to take up everything and
focus
or maybe
im smart
maybe its because...
im a winner
does that make you...
a looser?
if you could, if you should
but you dont???
i was thinking this today.
how i dont have time for games
everything is serious
all of the sudden
everything is a dramatic, adventure
1
2
3
4
5
6
is this what it takes to reach... God?
come on, i need to know these things, right?
i need to know... how to be
professional
i need to know... how to be
confidential
how to shut away my brain, and be better than everyone else
because counselors must be
disiplined
thoughtful
listeners
confidential
pacers and leaders
silent standbyers
cant get close
but have to connect
cant be friends
but need... relationship.
cant loose control.
loose control?!?
and he said "you seem like you used to be, i worry that your gona loose it when your watching the kids"
IM IN SCHOOL YOU BASTARD, HOW AM I GOING TO HAVE TIME FOR KIDS!!!!!!!!!????????
and besides
IT DOESNT MATTER IF YOUR THERE OR NOT, IM ALWAYS IN CHARGE ANYWAY!!!!!!!!
and you said "everything always has to be done your way"
and isnt it evil, but i thought "THATS BECAUSE IM SMART AND YOUR A DUMB ASS, NOW DONT YOU HAVE A BUSINESS TRIP WITH THE TV TO FUCKING LAZY ASSHOLE LAND?"
but thats so mean, and i cant be like that
you should be greatful, that all i do is cry. cuz i could beat you shity, with everything going on in my head.
i cant believe "theres nothing else to do" what, than sitting on your ass doing nothing? at least im knitting when i do nothing.
and then maybe, this is the place
where i can waste
my negative energy
and get out my major mood swings
so you dont have to see me cry
see me sad
see me angry
ill do it all in here
but the trade off: you have to let me be HONEST about how i feel
upward
out of the hole
out of the mud
climbing upward
and realization
and college, im realizing
is really focusing in on
careers.
ive never thought about education as geared toward a specific... goal
ive never thought that "here, this is what you want, this is what you do"
ive never realized that...... being human takes.... rules
rude rules
and i also realize that....
im crazy
to take on
this chalange
to take up all my time
to take up everything and
focus
or maybe
im smart
maybe its because...
im a winner
does that make you...
a looser?
if you could, if you should
but you dont???
i was thinking this today.
how i dont have time for games
everything is serious
all of the sudden
everything is a dramatic, adventure
1
2
3
4
5
6
is this what it takes to reach... God?
come on, i need to know these things, right?
i need to know... how to be
professional
i need to know... how to be
confidential
how to shut away my brain, and be better than everyone else
because counselors must be
disiplined
thoughtful
listeners
confidential
pacers and leaders
silent standbyers
cant get close
but have to connect
cant be friends
but need... relationship.
cant loose control.
loose control?!?
and he said "you seem like you used to be, i worry that your gona loose it when your watching the kids"
IM IN SCHOOL YOU BASTARD, HOW AM I GOING TO HAVE TIME FOR KIDS!!!!!!!!!????????
and besides
IT DOESNT MATTER IF YOUR THERE OR NOT, IM ALWAYS IN CHARGE ANYWAY!!!!!!!!
and you said "everything always has to be done your way"
and isnt it evil, but i thought "THATS BECAUSE IM SMART AND YOUR A DUMB ASS, NOW DONT YOU HAVE A BUSINESS TRIP WITH THE TV TO FUCKING LAZY ASSHOLE LAND?"
but thats so mean, and i cant be like that
you should be greatful, that all i do is cry. cuz i could beat you shity, with everything going on in my head.
i cant believe "theres nothing else to do" what, than sitting on your ass doing nothing? at least im knitting when i do nothing.
and then maybe, this is the place
where i can waste
my negative energy
and get out my major mood swings
so you dont have to see me cry
see me sad
see me angry
ill do it all in here
but the trade off: you have to let me be HONEST about how i feel