some time ago, and today
everytime i pass by
the room she used to
occupy
it chills
empty, barren, alone
ive lived there too,
and many others i supose
have called that one space
home
and now im over that
my 11th and last 1st cousin was born today round about an hour ago. my mother got to be there for it, in a way. she is in Georgia right now, and was there watching, feeding, the other four kids as the fifth was born. She, baby mustard, doesnt have a name yet and im here thinking about what it must be like for her to be so new. for all of them, to be around her, there for her first experiences. i think about the large family she was born into, the only thing she will have to worry about is sharring attention. all her needs will be met, they can afford that. they wont be sitting in line at social services... they wont even have to deal with public school till their booted off to college.
im so happy to have another one. to have a completion to it, the peace of mind that everyone is alive and ohkay, that everyone is there right now watching her sleep and cry and wiggle. another member of the family. another child to adore.
thankyou God
the room she used to
occupy
it chills
empty, barren, alone
ive lived there too,
and many others i supose
have called that one space
home
and now im over that
my 11th and last 1st cousin was born today round about an hour ago. my mother got to be there for it, in a way. she is in Georgia right now, and was there watching, feeding, the other four kids as the fifth was born. She, baby mustard, doesnt have a name yet and im here thinking about what it must be like for her to be so new. for all of them, to be around her, there for her first experiences. i think about the large family she was born into, the only thing she will have to worry about is sharring attention. all her needs will be met, they can afford that. they wont be sitting in line at social services... they wont even have to deal with public school till their booted off to college.
im so happy to have another one. to have a completion to it, the peace of mind that everyone is alive and ohkay, that everyone is there right now watching her sleep and cry and wiggle. another member of the family. another child to adore.
thankyou God