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if you haven't had the skinny on this, heres how it works. i am going to expand upon five words that were given to me. if you wish for me to give you five words, reply words to this journal and i will reply with five words that you are to then talk about in your journal. fun. here goes:
1. Family- once apon a time, in seventh (eighth?) grade i had to complete a little russian project wherein i was to make a family photo book of all my reletives. feeling that my actual family was lacking quite substancially with half of it missing, i used loni's family instead. i had to spend some time memorizing her MANY aunts and uncles and cousins etc. etc. along with how to say them in russian. although i dont remember all of them at the moment, i remember that exercize and feeling like i was learning home. of course when we were much younger than that, i remember talking at legnth about the time when my mom and her dad met and how much we thought they would be perfect together. and if i jump up to summer at age 16, when i had a horrific scare and ran away from home. honestly, when i left i had no idea where i was going, but as i stumbled around crying, and screaming in the woods of our very own stair park, i eventually figuring out the only place i could go when one leaves home... home, to my sister loni. who, with her vast wisdom and empathic qualities, sent me home again to my mother. were i to have gone anywhere else in that state of confusion, anger and anguish, im convinced that my life would have turned out infantly different from the one im leading now, and for that im eternally greatful. in high school also we created a, to say the least, bizar, family tree, but i wouldnt have it anyother way. as i said, with my family severly lacking in many areas i feel that tight bond i created with so many of my friends 'back in the day' has kept me afloat countless times and givin me the realization that one doesnt have to be related by blood to share the same bond, as in the case of two children that are currently so close to my heart it even scares my mother.
2. Music- music has always been a corner stone in my life. the ability to let it sweep you away into another world, as reading a book can. one of the greatest joys in my life has always been putting something on, really loud, and with a good beat and loosing myself in the heart of dance. spinning all through the house and laughing along until red in the face. generally this is a one person event, although occasionally my mother joins me. the main exception however, is loni. many times when we got together, if we wernt baking an apple pie, or terrorizing our friends boyfriends online, we were dancing together around the house, as though it were as natural a part of life as say, brushing ones teeth. until a few years ago, i was the kind of person who couldnt live with any silence. music had to be on, when doing homework, dishes, or any other chore and i would even have a tendency to get tired of just watching tv and play music in the background. although now in my life i dont play as much as i used to i still find it one of the very best ways to unwind, and be myself. (ill even dance around the house sometimes when im alone and have nothing to do)
3. Sleepovers- loni and i have a LONG history of this.. well i supose thats partly because we have a LONG history period. as children we would sleep at eachother houses pretty regurally. all the way back to the days where the floor to her room was not visible and i spend half the night ranting about how cute JTT was. on a side note, she even constructed a JTT club where her and i were the only members but i found out later she was just being nice to me because she didnt feel the same way about him that i did, lol. anyway, we slept head to foot, while we were still small enough to do this, and were under the 'believe' that if we slept holding hands and the house caught on fire, it would somehow miss us completely and we would wake in a pile of ashes but be, ourselves, unhurt.... im not sure if either of us actually believed that to be true, but it was a nice idea anyway. loni stayed with me at my grandpa's when he was dieing of cancer and having her there let me forget my grief for the time being. when we moved to duke drive, which was farther away from her than either of us wanted, it was always a treat when she could stay over. we would dance to great music, as i mentioned before, bake apple pies, harras certian friends boyfriends, make goofy recordings of our voices, watch movies, and walk to stair park every day, racing eachother down the street to the front door. many of my birthday parties were also sleep overs... i perfer this kind. why just party one day when you can keep it going all night and well into the next? i would actually some day like to do more of these :D
4. Determination- i find this interesting. i dont always feel like im striving towards the right goals but i do push through a whole lot of mess in my life to get to what i want. people are complex, and their goals arnt layed in stone, infact, most of the time they arnt even layed in thick mud. but the important thing is to get an idea and stick to it, even if it has to be modified once and a while.
5. Movies- no one can say i dont like a good movie. my collection isnt very vast (like some people i know) but its good. i like movies that thrill, tickle, egnite emagination, intice the mind, perplex, and pull you in. i like cute things, and horrible, and movies that make you cry. i like psychological mysterys, and i like obsecure offhanded, taboo movies. i like long movies, with a story that seems like it will never end, and i love wishing they really dont ever end when they do!
1. Family- once apon a time, in seventh (eighth?) grade i had to complete a little russian project wherein i was to make a family photo book of all my reletives. feeling that my actual family was lacking quite substancially with half of it missing, i used loni's family instead. i had to spend some time memorizing her MANY aunts and uncles and cousins etc. etc. along with how to say them in russian. although i dont remember all of them at the moment, i remember that exercize and feeling like i was learning home. of course when we were much younger than that, i remember talking at legnth about the time when my mom and her dad met and how much we thought they would be perfect together. and if i jump up to summer at age 16, when i had a horrific scare and ran away from home. honestly, when i left i had no idea where i was going, but as i stumbled around crying, and screaming in the woods of our very own stair park, i eventually figuring out the only place i could go when one leaves home... home, to my sister loni. who, with her vast wisdom and empathic qualities, sent me home again to my mother. were i to have gone anywhere else in that state of confusion, anger and anguish, im convinced that my life would have turned out infantly different from the one im leading now, and for that im eternally greatful. in high school also we created a, to say the least, bizar, family tree, but i wouldnt have it anyother way. as i said, with my family severly lacking in many areas i feel that tight bond i created with so many of my friends 'back in the day' has kept me afloat countless times and givin me the realization that one doesnt have to be related by blood to share the same bond, as in the case of two children that are currently so close to my heart it even scares my mother.
2. Music- music has always been a corner stone in my life. the ability to let it sweep you away into another world, as reading a book can. one of the greatest joys in my life has always been putting something on, really loud, and with a good beat and loosing myself in the heart of dance. spinning all through the house and laughing along until red in the face. generally this is a one person event, although occasionally my mother joins me. the main exception however, is loni. many times when we got together, if we wernt baking an apple pie, or terrorizing our friends boyfriends online, we were dancing together around the house, as though it were as natural a part of life as say, brushing ones teeth. until a few years ago, i was the kind of person who couldnt live with any silence. music had to be on, when doing homework, dishes, or any other chore and i would even have a tendency to get tired of just watching tv and play music in the background. although now in my life i dont play as much as i used to i still find it one of the very best ways to unwind, and be myself. (ill even dance around the house sometimes when im alone and have nothing to do)
3. Sleepovers- loni and i have a LONG history of this.. well i supose thats partly because we have a LONG history period. as children we would sleep at eachother houses pretty regurally. all the way back to the days where the floor to her room was not visible and i spend half the night ranting about how cute JTT was. on a side note, she even constructed a JTT club where her and i were the only members but i found out later she was just being nice to me because she didnt feel the same way about him that i did, lol. anyway, we slept head to foot, while we were still small enough to do this, and were under the 'believe' that if we slept holding hands and the house caught on fire, it would somehow miss us completely and we would wake in a pile of ashes but be, ourselves, unhurt.... im not sure if either of us actually believed that to be true, but it was a nice idea anyway. loni stayed with me at my grandpa's when he was dieing of cancer and having her there let me forget my grief for the time being. when we moved to duke drive, which was farther away from her than either of us wanted, it was always a treat when she could stay over. we would dance to great music, as i mentioned before, bake apple pies, harras certian friends boyfriends, make goofy recordings of our voices, watch movies, and walk to stair park every day, racing eachother down the street to the front door. many of my birthday parties were also sleep overs... i perfer this kind. why just party one day when you can keep it going all night and well into the next? i would actually some day like to do more of these :D
4. Determination- i find this interesting. i dont always feel like im striving towards the right goals but i do push through a whole lot of mess in my life to get to what i want. people are complex, and their goals arnt layed in stone, infact, most of the time they arnt even layed in thick mud. but the important thing is to get an idea and stick to it, even if it has to be modified once and a while.
5. Movies- no one can say i dont like a good movie. my collection isnt very vast (like some people i know) but its good. i like movies that thrill, tickle, egnite emagination, intice the mind, perplex, and pull you in. i like cute things, and horrible, and movies that make you cry. i like psychological mysterys, and i like obsecure offhanded, taboo movies. i like long movies, with a story that seems like it will never end, and i love wishing they really dont ever end when they do!