Lakehouse
So I saw the lakehouse w/ joanna and amanda today, and it was ok. Just some rough patches in there...* The truth: I want to be a nurse because of what I saw @ froederdt when my dad was there. They were amazing, and all i could think of was that i want to be them. I want to help people like my daddy get better, I want to help others and take care of them and bring them back to health. I know that nothing could have changed the situation that my dad was in, but i wanted to be the one taking care of him, nursing him, and getting rid of dreaded disease. I wanted to take it away. And you know what? My dad saw that. He could tell the passion that I have for it, that I wanted to help, that i wanted to do it. He believed in me, but i can't even believe in myself. Why aren't I pushing myself? Why am I putting it on the backburner and not as excited as i used to be about it?
I'm sorry. I'm frustrated about so many things right now...I just don't even know. It's like I'm waiting for something, and it's just not coming. I'm not feeling what I'm supposed to be feeling, not enjoying life like I'm supposed to. And why not? I have family, friends, and a boyfriend. What else is missing? What connection am I searching for?
I'm sorry. I'm frustrated about so many things right now...I just don't even know. It's like I'm waiting for something, and it's just not coming. I'm not feeling what I'm supposed to be feeling, not enjoying life like I'm supposed to. And why not? I have family, friends, and a boyfriend. What else is missing? What connection am I searching for?