Wow, this has turned into a fucking long post
Whoa do I ache. My whole body is so stiff and sore from playing rugby this afternoon; it was fucking awesome though. I haven't played in a long time so it was great to get back into it.
I had my chemi exam yesterday, which went really well actually. I know I've done good; it's that thing where you look at the questions and just know that you can do it. Now, thank fuck, I only have two left. I can't wait for them all to be over.
Anyway, I was bored so I stole a questionnaire:
I AM: Sleepy
I WANT: to be beautiful
I HAVE: Breasts! Hell yeah!
I WISH: I was stupid
I HATE: Other people’s pain
I MISS: Happiness
I FEAR: Dying before I can appreciate the beauty of life
I HEAR: Voices!! Muahahahaaa!!! (I don’t really)
I SEARCH: Skin for scars on others
I WONDER: What the point of my life is
I REGRET: not eating more chocolate when I didn’t care
I LOVE: playing guitar
I ACHE: after rugby.
I ALWAYS: leave things to the last minute
I AM NOT: very easy to understand
I DANCE: When I’m drunk off my face or stoned
I SING: When the music’s turned up really fucking loud.
I CRY: Never. Actually, I semi-cry during disney movies. Embarassing.
I AM NOT ALWAYS: hungry
I WRITE: when I’m lonely
I WIN: sports and academic prizes at school
I LOSE: myself in apathy
I CONFUSE: my dog. He thinks I’m crazy.
I NEED: someone to love me
I SHOULD: Smoke less
x. father thinks I am: …happy?
x. mother thinks I am: Fat and selfish.
x. three things you are often complimented on: Urgh. Urrmmm… conscientiousness (whoa, can’t spell that), art, ummm… general ‘niceness’ I suppose.
x. I get embarrassed when: People I like compliment me.
x. makes you happy: My rat, dog, music, guitar, art, friends, writing
x. upsets you: The absurdness of this society (including myself)
x. you keep a diary: Online and paper.
x. you like to cook: Fish in garlic, onion, tomatoes (yum!)
x. you have a secret you have not shared with anyone: Yes.
x. you're in love: No.
x. you set your watch a few minutes ahead: Haha, yes
x. you bite your fingernails: Yeah. Ewww…
x. you believe in love: No, too cynical
Who is...?
The weirdest person you know:
the Loudest Person you Know: Ley’s pretty loud and irritating, she’ll do.
The Sexiest Person you Know: Ha!
Your close friends: Sarah, Tim, Ita, Jo
The Person that Knows the Most about you: Sarah or Tim
Your Crush?: I don’t ‘do’ crushes :P
Most Boring Teacher: Doc Walker is boring as hell. His monotonous drone is so fucking sleep-inducing, especially first thing Mon morning. But then again, he does teach biology; can’t expect too much I suppose.
1. What is...?
your most overused phrase on IM: Haha; unoriginal I know, but it’s definitely ‘fuck’
the last image/thought you go to sleep with: I really don’t know.
your best feature: I like my skinny wrists and my eyes
your best inside joke: Hahaha!!! Definitely ‘most!’ (don’t ask)
2. Do You...?
Take a shower every day?: Yeah, usually
have a(any) crush(es): Nah
think you know you've been in love: No
want to get married: Buahahahaaa!! Me, married?! That’ll be the day!
have any tattoos/where?: Nope. I want several though; one on my lower back, one on my wrist and one on my upper right arm.
piercings/where?: 2 pairs in my ear lobes, also one in the top of my ear. I want my eyebrow and lip pierced too; when I leave school…
think you're a health freak: Hahahaa! No WAY.
get along with your parents: Sometimes.
like thunderstorms: Yeah, I love them.
SIGN: Taurus
NATURAL HAIR COLOR: Blonde. Ack.
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: dark brown/dirty blonde
EYE COLOR: A mixture of green, blue and grey.
BIRTHPLACE: Leiden, Holland.
( FAMILY )
PARENTS: Mam, Dad, Zhimin (dad’s girlfriend)
SIBLINGS: Jen, Sas, Stef
LIVE WITH: Mum, sisters, dog (Max)
FAVORITE RELATIVE: My gran
( FAVORITES )
NUMBER: 562
COLOR: Blood red. MUAHAHAHAHAAA!!
DAY: Wednesday
MONTH: November.
SONG: Too many.
FOOD: Ick.
SEASON: Autumn. Cold with beautiful clear nights.
SPORT: Swimming and football
DRINK: Coffee, fresh orange juice
VEGGIE: Raw carrot
( PREFERENCES )
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT? Cuddle
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE? Hot chocolate
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE? Dark
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE? Chocolate
( IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU.... )
CRIED? Nope
HELPED SOMEONE? I think (well, hope) so
BOUGHT SOMETHING? A cd by The Bled.
GOTTEN SICK? Hah! I don’t think ‘gotten’ is the right word, but yes.
GONE TO THE MOVIES? Nope
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? No
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? No
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? No
TALKED TO AN EX? On the phone
MISSED AN EX? Kind of…
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? Duh...
TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU CRUSH ON? ????!!!!!!
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? Yeah
MISSED SOMEONE? No-one in particular.
HUGGED SOMEONE? My dog :-)
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? No
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? No
name 9 things you hate:
1. Ignorance
2. Arrogance
3. A combination of 2 and 3; most people.
4. The oppressive monotony of this society
5. running
6. money
7. The beastie boys
8. Politics
9. Wanting, more than anything, something you know is unattainable
Would You Ever..
1. Eat a bug? Yeah. I’ve already eaten worms and ants; they don’t taste too bad at all actually.
2. Bungee jump? Hell yeah!!!
3. Hang glide? Definately
4. Kill someone? Yes. I know who would be first aswell… SO WATCH IT!!!!
5. Have sex with someone you don't love? Yeah. I’m a slut.
6. Kiss someone of the same sex? Yup
7. Have sex with someone of the same sex? No.
8. Parachute from a plane? Yeah sure
9. Walk on hot coals? Yeah, suppose so
10. Go out with someone for their looks? No way! I’m not that shallow.
11. For their reputation? That IS really fucking sad.
12. Be a vegetarian? Used to be one; it’s pretty easy actually.
13. Wear plaid with stripes? Yeah, suppose?
14. IM a stranger: Hah, yes.
15. Sing karaoke? Probably not actually. I’m dull like that.
16. Get drunk off your ass? Yes!
17. Shoplift? Yeah, it’s easy. Okay, so I’m bad; bite me.
18. Run a red light? Well I don’t actually…*ahem*…have my license yet. But yeah sure, apart from that small little problemette, why not?!
19. Star in a porn video? Haha! That would be fucking hilarious.
20. Dye your hair blue? Yup
21. Be on Survivor? No way.
22. Wear makeup in public? Yeah
23. NOT wear makeup? Also yes
25. Make someone cry? Hah. I can be really fucking nasty. So yes.
26. Call your math teacher a idiot? If they were, then yes. I’d do it to their face though; I hate bitchiness.
27. Kick a baby? I’m not that cruel!
28. Date someone more than ten years older than you? Don’t think so.
29. Cuss out a priest? Nah
30. Take a job as a janitor? Yeah sure
31. Wear a tho-tho-tho-tho-thong? yup
32. Stay up all through the night? I do that quite a lot anyways…
33. Drink straight espresso? I love coffee!
I also wrote a poem last night.
It was an oppressive, sticky summer,
When,
Caressing my soft skin with strong, calloused hands,
He first sat me on his lap,
And rocked himself to frenzy.
My teeth chattering hands shaking
His cold eyes burning.
Our secret passion as memories run in hot blood over my palms.
And the bright stars watched all from above,
And the gentle flowers saw all from below,
And all around there was silence.
I had my chemi exam yesterday, which went really well actually. I know I've done good; it's that thing where you look at the questions and just know that you can do it. Now, thank fuck, I only have two left. I can't wait for them all to be over.
Anyway, I was bored so I stole a questionnaire:
I AM: Sleepy
I WANT: to be beautiful
I HAVE: Breasts! Hell yeah!
I WISH: I was stupid
I HATE: Other people’s pain
I MISS: Happiness
I FEAR: Dying before I can appreciate the beauty of life
I HEAR: Voices!! Muahahahaaa!!! (I don’t really)
I SEARCH: Skin for scars on others
I WONDER: What the point of my life is
I REGRET: not eating more chocolate when I didn’t care
I LOVE: playing guitar
I ACHE: after rugby.
I ALWAYS: leave things to the last minute
I AM NOT: very easy to understand
I DANCE: When I’m drunk off my face or stoned
I SING: When the music’s turned up really fucking loud.
I CRY: Never. Actually, I semi-cry during disney movies. Embarassing.
I AM NOT ALWAYS: hungry
I WRITE: when I’m lonely
I WIN: sports and academic prizes at school
I LOSE: myself in apathy
I CONFUSE: my dog. He thinks I’m crazy.
I NEED: someone to love me
I SHOULD: Smoke less
x. father thinks I am: …happy?
x. mother thinks I am: Fat and selfish.
x. three things you are often complimented on: Urgh. Urrmmm… conscientiousness (whoa, can’t spell that), art, ummm… general ‘niceness’ I suppose.
x. I get embarrassed when: People I like compliment me.
x. makes you happy: My rat, dog, music, guitar, art, friends, writing
x. upsets you: The absurdness of this society (including myself)
x. you keep a diary: Online and paper.
x. you like to cook: Fish in garlic, onion, tomatoes (yum!)
x. you have a secret you have not shared with anyone: Yes.
x. you're in love: No.
x. you set your watch a few minutes ahead: Haha, yes
x. you bite your fingernails: Yeah. Ewww…
x. you believe in love: No, too cynical
Who is...?
The weirdest person you know:
the Loudest Person you Know: Ley’s pretty loud and irritating, she’ll do.
The Sexiest Person you Know: Ha!
Your close friends: Sarah, Tim, Ita, Jo
The Person that Knows the Most about you: Sarah or Tim
Your Crush?: I don’t ‘do’ crushes :P
Most Boring Teacher: Doc Walker is boring as hell. His monotonous drone is so fucking sleep-inducing, especially first thing Mon morning. But then again, he does teach biology; can’t expect too much I suppose.
1. What is...?
your most overused phrase on IM: Haha; unoriginal I know, but it’s definitely ‘fuck’
the last image/thought you go to sleep with: I really don’t know.
your best feature: I like my skinny wrists and my eyes
your best inside joke: Hahaha!!! Definitely ‘most!’ (don’t ask)
2. Do You...?
Take a shower every day?: Yeah, usually
have a(any) crush(es): Nah
think you know you've been in love: No
want to get married: Buahahahaaa!! Me, married?! That’ll be the day!
have any tattoos/where?: Nope. I want several though; one on my lower back, one on my wrist and one on my upper right arm.
piercings/where?: 2 pairs in my ear lobes, also one in the top of my ear. I want my eyebrow and lip pierced too; when I leave school…
think you're a health freak: Hahahaa! No WAY.
get along with your parents: Sometimes.
like thunderstorms: Yeah, I love them.
SIGN: Taurus
NATURAL HAIR COLOR: Blonde. Ack.
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: dark brown/dirty blonde
EYE COLOR: A mixture of green, blue and grey.
BIRTHPLACE: Leiden, Holland.
( FAMILY )
PARENTS: Mam, Dad, Zhimin (dad’s girlfriend)
SIBLINGS: Jen, Sas, Stef
LIVE WITH: Mum, sisters, dog (Max)
FAVORITE RELATIVE: My gran
( FAVORITES )
NUMBER: 562
COLOR: Blood red. MUAHAHAHAHAAA!!
DAY: Wednesday
MONTH: November.
SONG: Too many.
FOOD: Ick.
SEASON: Autumn. Cold with beautiful clear nights.
SPORT: Swimming and football
DRINK: Coffee, fresh orange juice
VEGGIE: Raw carrot
( PREFERENCES )
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT? Cuddle
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE? Hot chocolate
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE? Dark
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE? Chocolate
( IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU.... )
CRIED? Nope
HELPED SOMEONE? I think (well, hope) so
BOUGHT SOMETHING? A cd by The Bled.
GOTTEN SICK? Hah! I don’t think ‘gotten’ is the right word, but yes.
GONE TO THE MOVIES? Nope
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? No
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? No
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? No
TALKED TO AN EX? On the phone
MISSED AN EX? Kind of…
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? Duh...
TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU CRUSH ON? ????!!!!!!
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? Yeah
MISSED SOMEONE? No-one in particular.
HUGGED SOMEONE? My dog :-)
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? No
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? No
name 9 things you hate:
1. Ignorance
2. Arrogance
3. A combination of 2 and 3; most people.
4. The oppressive monotony of this society
5. running
6. money
7. The beastie boys
8. Politics
9. Wanting, more than anything, something you know is unattainable
Would You Ever..
1. Eat a bug? Yeah. I’ve already eaten worms and ants; they don’t taste too bad at all actually.
2. Bungee jump? Hell yeah!!!
3. Hang glide? Definately
4. Kill someone? Yes. I know who would be first aswell… SO WATCH IT!!!!
5. Have sex with someone you don't love? Yeah. I’m a slut.
6. Kiss someone of the same sex? Yup
7. Have sex with someone of the same sex? No.
8. Parachute from a plane? Yeah sure
9. Walk on hot coals? Yeah, suppose so
10. Go out with someone for their looks? No way! I’m not that shallow.
11. For their reputation? That IS really fucking sad.
12. Be a vegetarian? Used to be one; it’s pretty easy actually.
13. Wear plaid with stripes? Yeah, suppose?
14. IM a stranger: Hah, yes.
15. Sing karaoke? Probably not actually. I’m dull like that.
16. Get drunk off your ass? Yes!
17. Shoplift? Yeah, it’s easy. Okay, so I’m bad; bite me.
18. Run a red light? Well I don’t actually…*ahem*…have my license yet. But yeah sure, apart from that small little problemette, why not?!
19. Star in a porn video? Haha! That would be fucking hilarious.
20. Dye your hair blue? Yup
21. Be on Survivor? No way.
22. Wear makeup in public? Yeah
23. NOT wear makeup? Also yes
25. Make someone cry? Hah. I can be really fucking nasty. So yes.
26. Call your math teacher a idiot? If they were, then yes. I’d do it to their face though; I hate bitchiness.
27. Kick a baby? I’m not that cruel!
28. Date someone more than ten years older than you? Don’t think so.
29. Cuss out a priest? Nah
30. Take a job as a janitor? Yeah sure
31. Wear a tho-tho-tho-tho-thong? yup
32. Stay up all through the night? I do that quite a lot anyways…
33. Drink straight espresso? I love coffee!
I also wrote a poem last night.
It was an oppressive, sticky summer,
When,
Caressing my soft skin with strong, calloused hands,
He first sat me on his lap,
And rocked himself to frenzy.
My teeth chattering hands shaking
His cold eyes burning.
Our secret passion as memories run in hot blood over my palms.
And the bright stars watched all from above,
And the gentle flowers saw all from below,
And all around there was silence.