TAC fundraiser pt. 1
So Kids on Broadway, the summer of 2009, Theater Arts for Children's fundraiser event is on Saturday August 1st. shall I continue with this entry, or should I warn anyone who may be looking that I am about to get kinda cranky? Well, peoples, here is the honest truth with no holds from the theatre geek with a slight mean streak.
So I was called on Sunday. Went to rehearsal on Monday. Tuesday was tech day and I wasn't required so I took it off. Wednesday was a disaster. The sound discs were done but the second one kept skipping. The costumes are mostly done, oh wait, with the exception of the four that aren't started yet, the five that still need zippers, and the one guy who is missing a tie.
So we ran through the music. Half the kids can't sing loud enough. There is however an excuse for this, and a valid one at that. They have been practicing with a boom-box for...however long it is...and aren't used to the loud volume of the sound system. Okay. I get that. That works for me. Except that we open in three days!!! Does no one understand the magnitude of this dilemma?!! Can we say N-O-T-R-E-A-D-Y? I think I may have a meltdown if tonight doesn't go any better!
Why must I be so addicted to theatre? The thing that treats you like an abusive lover. The project that eats your time and becomes the sole focus of your world. You want to know the painful truth behind the madness? I've tried to leave it. I've tried to go without it for months on end. I can't do it. Every time, I just feel empty and lost, alone and confused. Theatre makes sense. The stress becomes worth it when you see the finished product. The time it takes from your life, becomes your life.
So you see, I can't turn away. For the rest of my life, I will be found in a theatre somewhere. I am destined to live my life devoted to the theatre world. And I think...I think I finally found my home. After years of searching, trying different things, over the last three years, I can't seem to leave the theatre. No matter how panicky I get when I think about the odds of finding stable work, I can't find it in my heart to change my course, not that my soul would let me mind you. It has become my saving grace. No matter what happens, theatre will always be a place I call home.