Performing/Art
So, if I really wanted to do art, I would just do it, and not bitch about how I don't do it.
At least, I keep telling myself that, anyway. I'm not sure if I'm trying to relieve the guilt of not trying to be (more) or persuade myself that I /could/ do art.
I don't think that comp sci is a waste of my talent(ugh) or anything like that. It's something I'm passionately fascinated by, that's challenging and requires all of my brain power. But shows like So You Think You Can Dance, and real life Braden getting passionate about art forces me to reflect on why I don't do art.
I wonder if I hadn't always had to frame my art as different/not better than Shawn's, if I would've pursued it harder, but not really. I was never that kid. As early as middle school, I realized that I was fucking smart, and that was my talent, not art. Art was and has always been a past-time. A thing I do while taking notes.
BLARGH. Ranty-mc-rant-face. Ignore my moping. I actually had a really fabulous day today. XD
At least, I keep telling myself that, anyway. I'm not sure if I'm trying to relieve the guilt of not trying to be (more) or persuade myself that I /could/ do art.
I don't think that comp sci is a waste of my talent(ugh) or anything like that. It's something I'm passionately fascinated by, that's challenging and requires all of my brain power. But shows like So You Think You Can Dance, and real life Braden getting passionate about art forces me to reflect on why I don't do art.
I wonder if I hadn't always had to frame my art as different/not better than Shawn's, if I would've pursued it harder, but not really. I was never that kid. As early as middle school, I realized that I was fucking smart, and that was my talent, not art. Art was and has always been a past-time. A thing I do while taking notes.
BLARGH. Ranty-mc-rant-face. Ignore my moping. I actually had a really fabulous day today. XD