Back to These Arms
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My heart races when I think about it.
It's annoying, because it's totally not fair.
Also, no such thing as platonic cuddles.
Also, I'm fairly certain there are no platonic relationships as far as I'm concerned if they're anything beyond acquaintance-ships. I think this is due to the fact that I'm in love with everyone at least a little bit. It's nice, in some ways. It can be frustrating as hell other times. I feel bad when I get all snuggly and lovey and it only has to last me until I get home and be taken care of by my One True Love, and the other party has no such Happy Ending waiting. Is it fair? I suppose it could be worse. I could artificially hold myself back in the name of 'being nice,' which is a totally different sort of torture. It may be a bit selfish, I guess. I do try and consider how others feel about it, especially the other person involved, and generally, the other person is aware I'm thinking about it because I keep babbling and making sure its okay.
At least, I know, I've never prevented someone pursuing other interests. As much as I fawn over Erin, she has other prospects, thank God. And as much as I've adored and snuggled with Mia/Jessica, both of them have their beaus. Genio has his lady in Hawaii. Punchabuddy may not have anyone, but at least he's smart enough to keep looking. I do my best to make sure people understand that as loving as I am, it's certainly nothing that should ever be taken as something even close to exclusive. My love is spread pretty thickly amongst a rather large crowd...I'm just full of the shit!
Dancing was beautiful last night. Jason and Braden know how to make a girl feel special. For the first time in my life, I turned Spearow down. It was...sort of nice to be able to do that and not feel guilty. Then, I was exhausted last night, and had a lack of second wind at Lyon's, and was all but half-dead there. I was charged for a single scoop of icecream instead of a whole sundae. (Or rather, Braden was, since I covered him at Perko's cause his card flaked. XD) It was amusing. The other two girls, whose name's I've forgotten, were not charged for their toast or the 3 shirley temples. *laughs* What a silly waiter. We think he got in trouble. XD
Possibly the best part was Braden saying in the most accidentally condescending way ever "It's so cute how you /actually/ love (Shawn)." There was laughter like nothing else there. I fall in love with Shawn again every time I talk about him. I need to do that in front of the people who have lost faith in him. (I want to use "Sea of Love" as our first/only dance as husband and wife. Shawn gave me no feedback. XD)
My heart races when I think about it.
It's annoying, because it's totally not fair.
Also, no such thing as platonic cuddles.
Also, I'm fairly certain there are no platonic relationships as far as I'm concerned if they're anything beyond acquaintance-ships. I think this is due to the fact that I'm in love with everyone at least a little bit. It's nice, in some ways. It can be frustrating as hell other times. I feel bad when I get all snuggly and lovey and it only has to last me until I get home and be taken care of by my One True Love, and the other party has no such Happy Ending waiting. Is it fair? I suppose it could be worse. I could artificially hold myself back in the name of 'being nice,' which is a totally different sort of torture. It may be a bit selfish, I guess. I do try and consider how others feel about it, especially the other person involved, and generally, the other person is aware I'm thinking about it because I keep babbling and making sure its okay.
At least, I know, I've never prevented someone pursuing other interests. As much as I fawn over Erin, she has other prospects, thank God. And as much as I've adored and snuggled with Mia/Jessica, both of them have their beaus. Genio has his lady in Hawaii. Punchabuddy may not have anyone, but at least he's smart enough to keep looking. I do my best to make sure people understand that as loving as I am, it's certainly nothing that should ever be taken as something even close to exclusive. My love is spread pretty thickly amongst a rather large crowd...I'm just full of the shit!
Dancing was beautiful last night. Jason and Braden know how to make a girl feel special. For the first time in my life, I turned Spearow down. It was...sort of nice to be able to do that and not feel guilty. Then, I was exhausted last night, and had a lack of second wind at Lyon's, and was all but half-dead there. I was charged for a single scoop of icecream instead of a whole sundae. (Or rather, Braden was, since I covered him at Perko's cause his card flaked. XD) It was amusing. The other two girls, whose name's I've forgotten, were not charged for their toast or the 3 shirley temples. *laughs* What a silly waiter. We think he got in trouble. XD
Possibly the best part was Braden saying in the most accidentally condescending way ever "It's so cute how you /actually/ love (Shawn)." There was laughter like nothing else there. I fall in love with Shawn again every time I talk about him. I need to do that in front of the people who have lost faith in him. (I want to use "Sea of Love" as our first/only dance as husband and wife. Shawn gave me no feedback. XD)