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Wow, it's been a while.
The past 2 years has been uneventful for me, and now I'm in the process of 'rearranging' my life, for lack of a better word. xD
I wish it's as easy as rearranging furnitures, and there are so many things I wished I've done differently.
But, no use beating myself over it, I have to move forward, yes?^^
Back when I was still in college, I promised myself that I'll sleep for a year after graduation. My dad said that he'll push me to take my licensure exam first...but he wasn't here after I graduated, so I did sleep, only I slept for 2 years not one!
Honestly, I don't know what got into me. I guess, I got addicted to the feeling of 'freedom' too much, freedom from school and obligations, I mean.^^ No longer do I have to stress over making the 'quota', lose sleep over grades and tests and patients...gah! >.>; For a while, I didn't want to have to do anything related to dentistry. It's like I hated it, I'm not sure where all the resentment came from...
I only wished I came to my senses earlier.
Now I'm preparing for that big exam. Review classes will start on the 18th, exam is on May 4,5,6. I have 26 subjects to review, and re-learn if needed, plus the practicals on June if I passed the theoretical.@_@
If that doesn't make my knees weak, I don't know what will!
A part of me whines why I wasted my time, and I know there's only one answer, I squandered, now I have to pay. T_T
Meanwhile, instead of waddling in self pity, no matter how tempting, I'm focusing my time doing home review. Oh, there are times I still want to beat myself...but I try to get back on track. xD
I didn't really sleep all those years, I worked for a while then used the saved money to buy a used dental chair.
I know I have a loose screw somewhere, my friends told me that I could buy brand new, pay in installment...but, I sort of 'panicked' when I realized nearly 2 years of my life has flown and I haven't taken the board exam yet!
There are days I really wished my parents were here to guide me. I still feel like a lost child sometimes. le sigh.
The past 2 years has been uneventful for me, and now I'm in the process of 'rearranging' my life, for lack of a better word. xD
I wish it's as easy as rearranging furnitures, and there are so many things I wished I've done differently.
But, no use beating myself over it, I have to move forward, yes?^^
Back when I was still in college, I promised myself that I'll sleep for a year after graduation. My dad said that he'll push me to take my licensure exam first...but he wasn't here after I graduated, so I did sleep, only I slept for 2 years not one!
Honestly, I don't know what got into me. I guess, I got addicted to the feeling of 'freedom' too much, freedom from school and obligations, I mean.^^ No longer do I have to stress over making the 'quota', lose sleep over grades and tests and patients...gah! >.>; For a while, I didn't want to have to do anything related to dentistry. It's like I hated it, I'm not sure where all the resentment came from...
I only wished I came to my senses earlier.
Now I'm preparing for that big exam. Review classes will start on the 18th, exam is on May 4,5,6. I have 26 subjects to review, and re-learn if needed, plus the practicals on June if I passed the theoretical.@_@
If that doesn't make my knees weak, I don't know what will!
A part of me whines why I wasted my time, and I know there's only one answer, I squandered, now I have to pay. T_T
Meanwhile, instead of waddling in self pity, no matter how tempting, I'm focusing my time doing home review. Oh, there are times I still want to beat myself...but I try to get back on track. xD
I didn't really sleep all those years, I worked for a while then used the saved money to buy a used dental chair.
I know I have a loose screw somewhere, my friends told me that I could buy brand new, pay in installment...but, I sort of 'panicked' when I realized nearly 2 years of my life has flown and I haven't taken the board exam yet!
There are days I really wished my parents were here to guide me. I still feel like a lost child sometimes. le sigh.