Papa bear and mama bear...
So, Diego was talking with me today and he brought up babies again. I hate when he does that because like...I know we shouldn't have kids now and I started my birth control last night but like, I look at my pictures of me and Katie and how happy I am and how beautiful she is...
It's not like I don't love my sisters as much as I love Katie, but I think Katie being born was the happiest moment in my life. I've had a lot of happy moments, and I'm sure I felt the same when my other sisters were born but I was too young to understand it...I want that again. That elation, that love, that pure ecstasy...only with my own child.
I think I'm especially feelign this way because I took the pill last night, and my period started today of course so I've had a good 1 1/2 weeks of not bleeding wooo....just super pissed in general about all that...blah.
I know two people on the verge of giving birth, one with her second and she's my age. It's just hard. I love my time with just my boyfriend it's just there's moments where it's hard.
It's not like I don't love my sisters as much as I love Katie, but I think Katie being born was the happiest moment in my life. I've had a lot of happy moments, and I'm sure I felt the same when my other sisters were born but I was too young to understand it...I want that again. That elation, that love, that pure ecstasy...only with my own child.
I think I'm especially feelign this way because I took the pill last night, and my period started today of course so I've had a good 1 1/2 weeks of not bleeding wooo....just super pissed in general about all that...blah.
I know two people on the verge of giving birth, one with her second and she's my age. It's just hard. I love my time with just my boyfriend it's just there's moments where it's hard.