AHHH!! ARGH! ASDFHASKHFASDFASRETF!
Wow, it's been one long ass week. I have no idea why, but the week kinda sucked... and mainly thanks to Tyler as usual. Ugh!! I hate his stupid fucking mood swings!!!! Seriously! WOW! I spent a good hour talking with him on the phone yesterday and it was all spent by him complaining that he has no friends. I really just don't get why he feels that way. I mean he's just got it drilled into his head that no one likes him and that his life is a tragedy, but truth be told, it's really not. He just needs so much more confidence and faith in himself and I don't know how to give that to him. I wish I did, God I just want him to be happy more than anything. I hate seeing him when he's feeling down and AHHH!!!!!! I DON'T KNOW! I have no idea what to do and it's really tearing at me. The look he gets on his face when he's feeling like this just... ugh!! Sappy as it sounds, breaks my heart. I mean I know that I shouldn't care as much as I do and that I'm probably acting silly... I know that people think I'm nuts for sticking by him and putting up with all of his bull shit and I know that he probably doesn't treat me the way I deserve to be treated... but he is such a good person! He is so considerate, nice, caring, loving blah blah blah the adjectives to describe him are endless... and there are those moments where things are just... perfect. Moments when he's happy and were together and I can see in his face that everything is okay... those to me are perfect. And I feel like someone straight out of Mom's Lifetime Original Movies, but I just can't help it... I'm not the sappy type, but Tyler seems to bring that out in me more often than not. I just don't know what to do anymore and I'm at a loss... I just wish he was happy... that's all I want.